the one about badrul and other stuff...

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i selalu berpegang pada kata-kata 'jangan derhaka pada kedua orang tua'... kalau derhaka, balasannya cepat jer sampai... and i have the taste of that medicine the other day... kita hanya manusia biasa yang memang banyak kelemahan dan perlu selalu kukuhkan keimanan... kalau tidak, senang sajer terlalai dan lupa pada pegangan kita... last saturday, balik kerja i memang letih sangat... maklumlah, hari pun panas... bila sampai rumah, badan dah penat, so i decided to take a nap... masa i tengah tidur tuh, my mom called... she was asking me about the house renovation and what type of light i want in the room etc.etc. she also need some money to get the light... since i was so sleepy, i brushed her off, and i know i tinggikan suara and told her that i will see her later... honestly, i don't really know why i did that... selalunya bila bercakap dengan my parents, i will watch my tone and language... walau macam mana keadaan sekali pun... but i guess i terlepas cakap that day...


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petangnya, i felt so guilty... walaupun i ada majlis berbuka puasa to attend to, i decided to stop by my parents house to see my mom... tapi disebabkan beberapa perkara, i keluar rumah agak lewat and bila i sampai kat rumah my mom tuh dah masuk waktu berbuka... i terus ke meja makan, keluarkan my wallet and gave my mom some money... she doesn't want to take it, but i insist... i know dia terluka dengan percakapan i earlier so i taknak panjangkan cerita... i mintak diri nak pergi berbuka puasa sebab dah janji dengan my friends... my mom tak angkat muka pun from her food, and later that night, i found out from my dad that my mom ingat i merajuk and taknak berbuka puasa dengan dia... i wanted to talk to my mom but my dad cakap biarlah dia 'sejuk' dulu... so, i ingat keesokannya bila balik dari kerja, i nak singgahlah rumah my mom...


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on sunday tuh, balik dari kerja, i lepak kat rumah sekejap... kemudian shonny ajak pergi tengok rumah contoh near by the house... bila keluar rumah jer, i teringatkan wallet i, so suruh shonny pusing balik... cari-cari kat rumah tak jumpa, then dalam my kereta and every where... last sekali, i decided to go back to the office, just in case terjatuh kat dalam studio... so, rush lah all the way to office... sampai kat office, check dengan engineer kat studio and other people yang tengah on-air, no one ternampak my wallet... check dalam studio every where tapi takda jugak... nak tak nak terpaksa terima hakikat that my wallet dah hilang and on the way back, i called all my credit card companies to cancel my cards... dalam wallet tuh ada about rm1,250.00 cash yang i keluarkan untuk bayar my car... semuanya macam dah terbayang kat depan mata... terbayang kena beratur buat i/c baru, driving license, atm cards and other stuff... kalau sesiapa pernah hilang wallet or purse mesti tahu betapa susahnya...


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tiba-tiba i teringatkan something... i terus called my mom... 'mummy, yoe mintak ampun pasal semalam... tak niat nak tinggi suara kat mummy... yoe letih... tengah tidur... but there is no excuse for my behaviour... maafkan yoe, mummy...' i should have called my mom ealier... i should have told her that i've broken my promise that i've made six years ago when i turn 30 to never hurt my parents... kerana nak tidur sejam, i buat something that i can't erased... 'takpa... mummy tau yoe letih kerja... mummy dah maafkan yoe...' i'm blessed with the most wonderful mother in the world!

two minutes lepas i put down the phone with my mom, zizi from xfresh called me... 'abang badrul, one of the engineer, azhar, dia jumpa wallet abang badrul kat bawah kerusi dalam studio...'

ya Allah ya Tuhan ku, ampunkanlah dosa hamba-Mu ini... berkatilah kehidupan kedua ibubapaku dunia dan akhirat...