Bidadari Hati

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

the one about badrul making the decision...


looking into the future...

it has been awhile since i put up an entry... banyak nya yang berlaku dalam tempoh singkat nih... i don't even know where to begin... all i know is, i'm so damn tired... kalau ikut hati, memang rasa macam nak berhenti kerja... kalau ikut hati lah... but it's not that easy... tanggungjawab besar... to my family... tapi kalau sampai dah takda masa untuk keluarga, is it worth it? hhmmmm...

kalau boleh, i just want to come back early from work... well, not that early, but the normal hour lah... masuk pukul 9.00 pagi, lepas tuh balik pukul 5.30 petang... have an early dinner and watch cartoon movies on disney channel with the kids... but... instead, pukul 8.30pagi dah terpacak di office... pukul 9.00 malam baru nak dinner... sampai rumah, semua dah gelap...

yes, of course... i'm doing this for my family... trying my best to provide them selagi yang termampu... like all of us, we want nothing short of the best for our family, tapi kadangkala kita terlupa, that they just want a bit of our time... again... hhhmmmm...

next week is another thing... i have to make the toughest decision yet... in my life... and i'm not happy... what is wrong with these people?!? masa orang kerja setengah mati, bukan main susah lagih nak dapat increament lah, nak naik pangkat lah... tapi bila kita dah dapat satu offer, mulalah orang yang sama nih nak offer this and offer that!!! well, i'm tired and this time around, i will make my own decision...

friday, i'm taking a day off... i'm taking the kids to watch robots and later in the evening (minum air suam) nak pergi melalak (minum air suam) dengan kengkawan (minum air suam)...

*type entry sambil tengok idol... well, more like dengar jer... based on their performances just now, i guess my bottom three will be mikalah, constantine and scott... and i hope mikalah keluar... nope, she is not a top 10 material...