the one about badrul and things are back to normal... i think...

thank you guys... i do appreciate your support... i truly do... but i'm okay, i think... if you ask me if i was dissapointed, i would say yes... in fact, i still am... but there's nothing i could do to change the fact that diddy is out from akademi... masa malam konsert tuh of courselah siapa yang tengok i nampak macam tak betul sikit... but at that time, i just need time alone... paling penting, i kena calm kan diri... something that i have to learn to control i guess... looking back, it was kind of funny... oh well, not funny - funny, but funny lah... i sebenarnya tak menitiskan airmata pun masa nama diddy disebut sebagai pelajar yang meninggalkan akademi fantasia... i guess masa tuh i was more angry and dissapointed rather than sad... tapi teman-teman press di sebelah i, di depan dan di belakang i seorang demi seorang mula menghulurkan tissue pada i... masa tuh lah perasaan sayu mula menerjah... that was when i started crying... but yang kelakarnya, i ended up with lebih sepuluh bungkus tissue... muhahahhaaa... i tak tunggu sampai pengumuman lainnya... sebaik saja diddy keluar dari dewan, i went out to my car... i just drove off tanpa tujuan... phone calls and sms datang bertalu-talu... it was hard for me to accept the fact that diddy was no longer in the akademi... sedar sedar i dah sampai klang... that was the time i realised rezeki diddy di dalam akademi fantasia dah termaktub begitu... tapi rezeki dikemudian hari kita masih tak tahu... i turned and drove back to dewan sivik... i wanted to watch the imbasan... i wanted to assure diddy that no matter what, i still supported him... i wanted to prove that diddy does has fans whether he's in or out of the academy...

i rasa my 'work' with akademi fantasia dah habis di sini... i mungkin tak akan ke dewan sivik mppj untuk menyaksikan konsert pada hujung minggu... no, i tak merajuk... jauh sekali membenci akademi fantasia... tapi i rasa tugas i sudah habis untuk akademi fantasia... tugas i untuk menyokong diddy akan berterusan seperti janji i pada jolyn... no, not 'pada'... more like janji i 'bersama' jolyn... i tak tahu macam mana pula dengan fibie, leen, izreen dan chail... itu terpulang kepada mereka sama ada akan terus menyokong or berhenti setakat ini... though i really do hope they will continue sebab mereka adalah tonggak yang amat kukuh membantu diddy... they have done so much and more... i may have to seat down and have a heart to heart talk with them... selepas ni, mungkin i akan hanya menonton akademi fantasia dari rumah... but look at the bright side... untuk enam minggu akademi fantasia seterusnya, bill telefon i akan kembali normal... tak perlu bimbang dan tak perlu ragu... masih ramai lagi yang akan menulis tentang diari dan tentunya konsert mingguan... you can read it at fiebie (hopefully), y, klubbkidd, maddox, sultanmuzaffar, elkapitan, nakaltitude dan banyak lagi... banyak lagi... blog-hopping and you will find it... dengan citarasa dan gaya penulisan masing-masing...

life is full of ups and downs... i'm an old guy...
i do know... trust me...