the one about badrul and a gift from the heart...
"in view of hari raya celebration,the rush schedules you have been going through and to celebrate the opening of f-tersix, your love one is taking you for a short escapade, hopefully to rejuvenate your soul... details as follow: date - 21 oct 06, time - have a good rest, just sleep early... will be woken... venue - you don't need to know... what to pack - will be packed for you... what to bring - wear comfortable, slippers, ic, driving license, wallet, camera (optional), sunglasses, cigarattes and lighter..."
that was the sms i received from someone very special in my life... not many people know, but i love suprises... and what's important, it came from someone that you love and you really care about... things were tough for the past couple of days for me and this special person could actually see right through me... just a few days before hari raya, my stress level was at its peak... my blood-pressure was 160 over 118... horrible, horrible headache... oh well, bla.. bla... bla... bla... same old thing kan... macam dah tak ada benda baru nak cerita... anyway, i hope i will be able to cope with my stress soon... it has to be really soon... oh well... oh well...
that was the sms i received from someone very special in my life... not many people know, but i love suprises... and what's important, it came from someone that you love and you really care about... things were tough for the past couple of days for me and this special person could actually see right through me... just a few days before hari raya, my stress level was at its peak... my blood-pressure was 160 over 118... horrible, horrible headache... oh well, bla.. bla... bla... bla... same old thing kan... macam dah tak ada benda baru nak cerita... anyway, i hope i will be able to cope with my stress soon... it has to be really soon... oh well... oh well...
"wake up... it's time..."
i look at the clock, 5.30am... a small bag was ready by the door... so i took a quick shower and jumped on the car...
"mana kita nak pergi?"
"just wait and see... it's still early... why don't you close your eyes and relax... take a nap or something..."
i closed my eyes and woke up an hour later with heavy traffic on the highway...
"we are on the highway going north... where to?"
"you'll have to wait... it seems like everyone is going back to their hometown for raya at the same time..."
i doze off again... i woke up at the exit to sungkai...
"we are going to sungkai? what's in sungkai?"
"you ask too many questions... just wait, okay..."
mata i tak berkelip tengok barisan rumah-rumah kampung... dah lama benar i tak balik kampung... dah lama benar i tak hidu udara kampung, tak rasa suasana kampung... i close my eyes again and picture myself in my grandma's house... rumah kayu kampung dengan tingkap yang banyak, penuh dengan pokok buah-buahan di sekeliling rumah... mandi air telaga yang sejuk, main upih pinang, panjat pokok rambutan, makan bersila di dapur, diterangi lampu pelita... oh lampu pelita... arwah tok aki selalu hiburkan cucu-cucunya dengan wayang kulit... dan i tukang pegang lampu pelita... those childhood moments...
i look at the clock, 5.30am... a small bag was ready by the door... so i took a quick shower and jumped on the car...
"mana kita nak pergi?"
"just wait and see... it's still early... why don't you close your eyes and relax... take a nap or something..."
i closed my eyes and woke up an hour later with heavy traffic on the highway...
"we are on the highway going north... where to?"
"you'll have to wait... it seems like everyone is going back to their hometown for raya at the same time..."
i doze off again... i woke up at the exit to sungkai...
"we are going to sungkai? what's in sungkai?"
"you ask too many questions... just wait, okay..."
mata i tak berkelip tengok barisan rumah-rumah kampung... dah lama benar i tak balik kampung... dah lama benar i tak hidu udara kampung, tak rasa suasana kampung... i close my eyes again and picture myself in my grandma's house... rumah kayu kampung dengan tingkap yang banyak, penuh dengan pokok buah-buahan di sekeliling rumah... mandi air telaga yang sejuk, main upih pinang, panjat pokok rambutan, makan bersila di dapur, diterangi lampu pelita... oh lampu pelita... arwah tok aki selalu hiburkan cucu-cucunya dengan wayang kulit... dan i tukang pegang lampu pelita... those childhood moments...
"dah sampai..."
i open my eyes... it says plantation resorts trap sungai klah...
"today, you just relax... do not think of anything else... just you... just you"...
i look at the watch... it says 7.30am... the place was beautiful, quiet and so peaceful... hot spring spa... penuh dengan tumbuhan yang menghijau...
i felt good... dah lama benar tak rasa macam tu... at first, i thought i had this weird feelings... tapi rupanya i actually felt good from inside... genuinely rasa lega... not just on the surface... jauh dari kebisingan, tak ada masalah dalam fikiran, tak ada sesiapa except myself... i know that all those things will come back, but at that point of time, i don't care... all i know was that i have that two short hours to myself... kelegaan yang dah lama i tak rasa...
"stop trying so hard to make everyone likes you... i love you for who you are, and they should too... if not, they are not your real friends... you don't have to impress them!"
expectation... hmmmm... oh, this conversation took place later, but sebelum i lupa, i better put it down... honestly, i thought my relationship was fine... i thought it was smooth sailing... maybe not smooth sailing, but it was okay... i tak pernah terfikir yang dia rasa otherwise... trust me, never take anything for granted... time to save my relationship...
i open my eyes... it says plantation resorts trap sungai klah...
"today, you just relax... do not think of anything else... just you... just you"...
i look at the watch... it says 7.30am... the place was beautiful, quiet and so peaceful... hot spring spa... penuh dengan tumbuhan yang menghijau...
i felt good... dah lama benar tak rasa macam tu... at first, i thought i had this weird feelings... tapi rupanya i actually felt good from inside... genuinely rasa lega... not just on the surface... jauh dari kebisingan, tak ada masalah dalam fikiran, tak ada sesiapa except myself... i know that all those things will come back, but at that point of time, i don't care... all i know was that i have that two short hours to myself... kelegaan yang dah lama i tak rasa...
"stop trying so hard to make everyone likes you... i love you for who you are, and they should too... if not, they are not your real friends... you don't have to impress them!"
expectation... hmmmm... oh, this conversation took place later, but sebelum i lupa, i better put it down... honestly, i thought my relationship was fine... i thought it was smooth sailing... maybe not smooth sailing, but it was okay... i tak pernah terfikir yang dia rasa otherwise... trust me, never take anything for granted... time to save my relationship...
it was the best two hours... well, i had fun the whole day actually... i rasa lega dan lapang... thank you my love... terasa berat hati driving back to kl... seperti kembali ke tempat yang penuh dengan masalah dan kepedihan... but i realised, all of these add colours to our lives...
"i wish i could trade place with you..."
someone wrote to me once... i tak reply pun... but i want to say it here, kita selalu nampak keseronokan dan kelebihan hidup orang lain... kita selalu anggap kehidupan orang lain lebih baik daripada apa yang kita miliki... well, itu hanyalah apa yang kita nampak di luar... kita tak lihat kehidupan sebenar yang mereka miliki... kita tidak nampak kesusahan, kesedihan, kepedihan dan kedukaan yang mereka lalui... selagi kita tidak dapat menerima kehidupan kita sendiri, kita tidak dapat mencintai diri kita sendiri, selagi itu kita akan tercari-cari, kita akan mencemburui dan kita akan menghargai kehidupan orang lain... so stop thinking that other people's lives is much better than ours... and start living... but most importantly, start loving yourself...
"i wish i could trade place with you..."
someone wrote to me once... i tak reply pun... but i want to say it here, kita selalu nampak keseronokan dan kelebihan hidup orang lain... kita selalu anggap kehidupan orang lain lebih baik daripada apa yang kita miliki... well, itu hanyalah apa yang kita nampak di luar... kita tak lihat kehidupan sebenar yang mereka miliki... kita tidak nampak kesusahan, kesedihan, kepedihan dan kedukaan yang mereka lalui... selagi kita tidak dapat menerima kehidupan kita sendiri, kita tidak dapat mencintai diri kita sendiri, selagi itu kita akan tercari-cari, kita akan mencemburui dan kita akan menghargai kehidupan orang lain... so stop thinking that other people's lives is much better than ours... and start living... but most importantly, start loving yourself...
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