the one about badrul and that wonderful news...

front...

yes! the first card is ready... my company is now open for business... f-tersix sdn bhd... i received the company number seminggu sebelum hari raya... masa tu memang dah tak sabar dah nak update, but i still have to wait for the card untuk siap dulu, baru nampak official sikit kan... as you can see, there is a web address on the card, tapi i just got it so belum dapat buat apa-apa lagi... takpalah, slow and steady... taknak nanti sampai tak cukup tangan nak terpa semuanya sekali gus... but the most important thing is that i dah booked the domain... thank you to boy yang tolong buatkan...

sebenarnya masih lagi banyak benda yang perlu dilakukan... this is just the initial stage... orang kata macam tapak pertama... Alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan dengan agak baik dan tersusun walau terdapat sedikit ranjau di sana sini... perjalanan masih jauh but i have a very good business partner yang i rasa will always keep me on track... setakat ni pun sokongan teman-teman sangat kuat... you know who you are... thank you so much... and i really hope that the support will continue... at the same time, dah ada a few business deals which are very promising... insyaAllah, bila sudah ada black and white, i akan update kan...

back...

this is the 'first' card... ada lagi satu card which is also another good news for me, tapi i belum boleh ceritakan lagi di sini... some close friends macam leen dah tau *sebab dia dah tak senang ttutttt dah nak tau* but selagi belum ada confirmation, i rather not tell everyone... sampai masa nanti, insyaAllah, i will share the good news with all... hopefully soon lah kot... kalau ada rezeki, adalah...

to those yang meminati diddy, don't forget to watch his performance hari sabtu nanti for hitz.tv kat sunway lagoon... he will be singing two english songs, and i promise you it will be something excellent, insyaAllah... it will not be diddy yang you tengok masa af... it will be much better! if i'm not mistaken, that event start dalam pukul 2.00petang... nanti bila i dapat more information, i akan bagitau...

to all yang baru balik dari kampung and dah start kerja tu*i belum lagi!*, selamat bertugas... and again, selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin... hari tu sibuk berbuka, sekarang sibuk nak beraya dan pergi rumah terbuka... makan... makan... makan... hhhhmmmm...

the one about badrul and a gift from the heart...

"in view of hari raya celebration,the rush schedules you have been going through and to celebrate the opening of f-tersix, your love one is taking you for a short escapade, hopefully to rejuvenate your soul... details as follow: date - 21 oct 06, time - have a good rest, just sleep early... will be woken... venue - you don't need to know... what to pack - will be packed for you... what to bring - wear comfortable, slippers, ic, driving license, wallet, camera (optional), sunglasses, cigarattes and lighter..."

that was the sms i received from someone very special in my life... not many people know, but i love suprises... and what's important, it came from someone that you love and you really care about... things were tough for the past couple of days for me and this special person could actually see right through me... just a few days before hari raya, my stress level was at its peak... my blood-pressure was 160 over 118... horrible, horrible headache... oh well, bla.. bla... bla... bla... same old thing kan... macam dah tak ada benda baru nak cerita... anyway, i hope i will be able to cope with my stress soon... it has to be really soon... oh well... oh well...

"wake up... it's time..."

i look at the clock, 5.30am... a small bag was ready by the door... so i took a quick shower and jumped on the car...

"mana kita nak pergi?"

"just wait and see... it's still early... why don't you close your eyes and relax... take a nap or something..."

i closed my eyes and woke up an hour later with heavy traffic on the highway...

"we are on the highway going north... where to?"

"you'll have to wait... it seems like everyone is going back to their hometown for raya at the same time..."

i doze off again... i woke up at the exit to sungkai...

"we are going to sungkai? what's in sungkai?"

"you ask too many questions... just wait, okay..."

mata i tak berkelip tengok barisan rumah-rumah kampung... dah lama benar i tak balik kampung... dah lama benar i tak hidu udara kampung, tak rasa suasana kampung... i close my eyes again and picture myself in my grandma's house... rumah kayu kampung dengan tingkap yang banyak, penuh dengan pokok buah-buahan di sekeliling rumah... mandi air telaga yang sejuk, main upih pinang, panjat pokok rambutan, makan bersila di dapur, diterangi lampu pelita... oh lampu pelita... arwah tok aki selalu hiburkan cucu-cucunya dengan wayang kulit... dan i tukang pegang lampu pelita... those childhood moments...

"dah sampai..."

i open my eyes... it says plantation resorts trap sungai klah...

"today, you just relax... do not think of anything else... just you... just you"...

i look at the watch... it says 7.30am... the place was beautiful, quiet and so peaceful... hot spring spa... penuh dengan tumbuhan yang menghijau...

i felt good... dah lama benar tak rasa macam tu... at first, i thought i had this weird feelings... tapi rupanya i actually felt good from inside... genuinely rasa lega... not just on the surface... jauh dari kebisingan, tak ada masalah dalam fikiran, tak ada sesiapa except myself... i know that all those things will come back, but at that point of time, i don't care... all i know was that i have that two short hours to myself... kelegaan yang dah lama i tak rasa...

"stop trying so hard to make everyone likes you... i love you for who you are, and they should too... if not, they are not your real friends... you don't have to impress them!"

expectation... hmmmm... oh, this conversation took place later, but sebelum i lupa, i better put it down... honestly, i thought my relationship was fine... i thought it was smooth sailing... maybe not smooth sailing, but it was okay... i tak pernah terfikir yang dia rasa otherwise... trust me, never take anything for granted... time to save my relationship...

it was the best two hours... well, i had fun the whole day actually... i rasa lega dan lapang... thank you my love... terasa berat hati driving back to kl... seperti kembali ke tempat yang penuh dengan masalah dan kepedihan... but i realised, all of these add colours to our lives...

"i wish i could trade place with you..."

someone wrote to me once... i tak reply pun... but i want to say it here, kita selalu nampak keseronokan dan kelebihan hidup orang lain... kita selalu anggap kehidupan orang lain lebih baik daripada apa yang kita miliki... well, itu hanyalah apa yang kita nampak di luar... kita tak lihat kehidupan sebenar yang mereka miliki... kita tidak nampak kesusahan, kesedihan, kepedihan dan kedukaan yang mereka lalui... selagi kita tidak dapat menerima kehidupan kita sendiri, kita tidak dapat mencintai diri kita sendiri, selagi itu kita akan tercari-cari, kita akan mencemburui dan kita akan menghargai kehidupan orang lain... so stop thinking that other people's lives is much better than ours... and start living... but most importantly, start loving yourself...

the one about badrul and aidilfitri wishes...

kepada semua rakan-rakan, teman-teman dan sahabat handai, i would like to take this opportunity untuk mengucapkan selamat hari raya aidilfitri dan maaf zahir batin dari hujung kaki ke hujung rambut *errr, kepala kot* atas segala salah dan silap sama ada yang sengaja atau tidak disengajakan... kalau ada tutur kata, perbuatan atau tulisan di sini yang mengguris hati atau menyentuh perasaan, harap maafkan... kepada yang pernah bergaduh ke, atau apa ke, lupakanlah segala yang berlalu... kita mulakan jalinan persahabatan yang baru... here wishing you the best of everything for this hari raya...

the one about badrul and things that slip his mind...

there are so many things yang i 'terlupa' lately... ada yang membuatkan i rasa malu... some tu sedih... ada jugak yang i tak kisah sangat... tapi yang i rasa memang tak patut, i terlupa nak celebrate birthday some of my friends macam ijin, dream and others... i'm so sorry... walaupun kesalahan tu macam tak boleh dimaafkan, i still mintak ampun atas kealpaan yan terjadi... but whatever it is, i promise, hadiah harijadi tu tetap ada... this hari raya, october 25, is aiman's birthday... harap-harap i tak lupalah pulak... kalau tak, memanglah...

i also forgot about my blog's 2nd anniversary... not that it's so important... oh well, i do think it's quite important to me since i got to know so many wonderful people through my blog... pejam celik pejam celik, dah dua tahun i 'tulis' kat blog yang tak seberapa ini... baru jer setengah jam yang lepas i baca balik my first entry... hhmmmmm... cepat sungguh masa berjalan... banyak jugak jasa-jasa blog nih pada i sepanjang i menulis kat sini... and the best thing was, hampir semua kenangan-kenangan yang i dapat from this blog adalah kenangan-kenangan yang manis dan indah...

this is also the third time my blog 'celebrate' ramadhan... but this time around, i forgot to do my usual kitchen tour... i miss it so much, but i don't have time... pernahlah masa awal-awal ramadhan dulu i masak, tapi lepas tu setiap masa berbuka puasa di luar jer... hujung minggu pulak bila takda apa-apa aktiviti, i pergi ke pasar ramadhan... too tired to cook... tapi sedih jugaklah sebab tak dapat nak buat my usual kitchen tour... i do have some 'new' recipes yang nak dikongsi... oh wait, when i say 'new', maksudnya new to me... bukannya yang tak pernah dibuat dek orang... one new recipe yang i belajar makan recently was tempe goreng berlada dengan kupang... seeddaapppp sangat-sangat... takpalah, kalau i tak sempat buat bulan puasa, insyaAllah bila ada kelapangan i akan buat baliklah...

another thing that slips my mind was our pledge your donation project... mula-mula i rancang nak start bulan august hari tuh, lepas tuh tangguh bulan september, nih dah bulan october dah... terlupa langsung... sedih jugak lupa nak buat pledge your donation nih... tapi again, insyaAllah, kalau masih ada ramai yang interested, we can do it again... apa-apa pun, you can still do your own donation by contacting the person-in-charge... the contact details ada side-bar kat bawah belah kanan blog nih...

and yes, i terlupa jugak nak updatekan on the next phase of my life tuh... sebenarnya dah siap dah type semuanya, but something went wrong and before i sempat nak savekan entry tuh, it went blank... so i nak kena start all over again, but i have yet to find the time to really sit down and re-write everything... tunggulah dulu... and i do have one happy announcement to make, tapi tunggulah dulu sikit yach... biar cardnya siap dulu... muhahahaaa... nanti baru dikira official, ya tak? harap-harap it won't slip my mind yet again lah...

harap-harap i tak terlupa nama i sendiri lah pulak...

the one about badrul and diddy's birthday 'celebration'...

diddy dah 21 tahun dah...

relax kejaplah sebelum i continue with the story on the next phase of my life... macam stress pulak cerita tuh... muhahaha... so, lets story mory about diddy's birthday for awhile... some people kata 18 is 'the' birthday to celebrate... ada yang kata when you turn 21... ada pulak yang baru nak masuk 30 cakap that is the one... ada yang kata life began at 40... macam-macamlah... but i tetap pegang pada umur 21 tahun lah... entah kenapa... tapi i think that is 'the' birthday to celebrate... i actually takda proper plan pun untuk buat birthday celebration for diddy... birthday i sendiri pun takda proper planning... main ikut suka hati jer... tapi i tetap nak buat something yang diddy takkan lupakan... hopefully... because sampai sekarang i tak boleh lupa masa i celebrate my 21st birthday *which is not so long ago... muhahahahaa* mula-mula rancang nak buat dengan diddy fc, tapi bila throw in the suggestion to them, that's all kot... tinggal hanya suggestion... takda orang nak take the initiative to move it... maybe semua orang sibuk dengan plan masing-masing apatah lagi dalam bulan puasa... since i dah booked date on the october 7, kelam kabut jugak i nak uruskan semuanya...

buka puasa at hilton kl sentral...

anyway, diddy's birthday was actually on the fifth... 5 october... sehari sebelumnya ada buka puasa di hilton kl sentral... ramai jugak af4 yang hadir malam tuh, so i decided to do a small surprise gathering at midnight... rich suggested we meet up bangsar... dekat sikit dengan rumah budak-budak tuh... lepas habis berbuka, we went to send farhan to meet up with her dad kat maluri... kemudian dapat sms dari seseorang yang tengah tenat, merajuk dan patah hati, so we rushed to shah alam... yes, it's hard being me... banyak hati yang nak kena jaga... so, pandulah macam orang giler ke shah alam... sempat minum-minum dengan joe, hatta, wanie, radz dan fiebie... kemudian dari sana lebih kurang pukul 11.45 drive macam orang giler pulak nak ke bangsar... yes, diddy won't forget this... celebrating his 21st birthday in the car... family called to wish him happy birthday... it was kind of nice kat bangsar... ramai jugak yang datang... rich, lotter, haziq, amirul, farhan, nora, farish, nia, azman maestro, tasya, intan... quite a group of people... then we went for sahur dekat mamak near bangsar... jumpa pulak dengan komposer aidit alfian and ad samad *lyricist for drama*... sempat berborak dan bercerita about my plan... aidit cakap diddy nyanyi 'stylo'... and i think it's a compliment... a good thing... i hope!

diddy with anuar zain...



before the photoshoot with dayang...



famee with dayang...

on his birthday itself, i dah setkan something special... thanks to kak cham and farihad of berita harian... sebenarnya ia dah dirancangkan seminggu lebih sebelum tu... photoshoot diddy bersama idolanya, anuar zain dan dayang nurfaizah... tapi malangnya anuar tak dapat join sama kerana ada recording di indonesia... tapi i tetap bersyukur kerana diddy dah pernah jumpa anuar three times before this, tapi ini kali pertama dia bertemu dengan dayang nurfaizah... thanks again to farihad and kak cham yang merialisasikan impian diddy... terima kasih jugak pada famee yang buat kali ketiga menjadi makeup artist untuk diddy... photoshoot berjalan dengan lancar... lepas habis photoshoot, terus ke kl tower untuk majlis berbuka puasa bersama intrend... awal-awal i dah rancang jugak untuk celebrate diddy's birthday kat sana, tapi plannya tak berapa menjadi kerana orang yang sepatutnya tolong bawak cake gagal menyempurnakan tugas dengan baik... then i called azman from maestro mintak tolong belikan tapi sebab diaorang pun terperangkap dalam jam, tak dapat nak menolong... dah tak ada jalan lain, terpaksalah i pergi beli cake sendiri dengan diddy duduk di sebelah... hhhhmmm... no more surprise! still, it was something to remember bila hampir semua rakan-rakan artis yang hadir diketuai oleh yanie yang bawak cake, masuk ke dewan ramai-ramai sambil menyanyikan lagu selamat hari jadi...

happy birthday diddy...



birthday celebration at intrend buka puasa...

on the 6th of october, kita pergi berbuka puasa di pwtc bersama puteri umno dan beberapa rumah anak-anak yatim... dalam suka ada duka... bayangkan duduk bersama anak-anak yang tak punya ibu atau bapa atau kedua-duanya... sayu rasa hati... tapi itulah ketetapan Tuhan... harap-harap hidup mereka dan kita semua akan sentiasa diberkati-Nya... lepas berbuka puasa di sana, terus ke palace of golden horses untuk majlis seroja astro... ramai teman-teman yang datang... sempat jugak tengok persembahan ramli sarip yang memang memukau... masa tu perut pun dah kenyang, so sempat jamah aiskrim... at the same time, jemput beberapa teman-teman rapat dan orang yang banyak membantu diddy untuk sama-sama ke majlis diddy malam esoknya...

at astro buka puasa, palace of the golden horses...



diddy with ellen, mak, abah and friends...



antara artis dan selebriti yang turut bersama diddy...

thanks to yazz and staff from senja bistro kerana tolong buat macam-macam untuk menjadikan birthday celebration diddy something to remember... lauk pauknya sedap-sedap belaka... thanks to those yang datang jugak... shonny, jolyn, family diddy - mak dan abah, ellen, jeff dan lina serta anak-anak, aerin and wife, timy dan k, azman and family, sultanmuzaffar, leen, ijin, nisa, joe, juan, fiebie, hatta, wanie, radz, famee, serta teman-teman artis dan selebriti macam vernon dan lucas, audi, aznil dan lan, cikgu kevin dan teman, cikgu shafi dan anak, cikgu corrie dan kawan, amylea dan teman, haziq, zila, nora, leya, karen dan john, nikki, yanie... on top of the birthday cake, we also made a small cupcakes yang ada diddy's initial on it... we wanted to do something special too, so with vernon and audi's permission, we played the demo of diddy and yanie's duet song... everyone seems to love it... well, from the thunderous applause... i hope...

family and close friends...



leen, sm, nisa, ijin and jolyn... all beautiful girls... hik!



delicious and beautiful cupcakes...

so there you have it... nothing special or spectacular, but i hope diddy will remember it...

the one about badrul and the next phase of his life... (part 2)...

those cross-roads...

the road is long and winding... jangan cakaplah berapa kali dah i jatuh tersungkur, then bangun bertatih balik... terlalu banyak cabaran yang datang sedangkan i baru saja dipermulaan jalan... not even half way, not even close to the place that i wanted to go... at times, i rasa macam nak quit... pada mulanya i ingat cabaran yang hebat sekadar untuk menjadikan sesuatu yang bermula dari kosong, menjadi sesuatu yang berjaya dan dikenali ramai, tetapi rupanya orang-orang kita masih tidak boleh menerima hakikat bahawa orang lain juga berhak untuk berusaha... perasaan dengki, irihati dan cemburu mula bersarang... bit by bit segelintir manusia mula membuat cerita dan memburuk-burukkan both of us... dengan i bercerita lain, dengan diddy pulak lain ceritanya... ada yang kata i hanya suam-suam kuku kerana sebelum ini pun i sibuk dengan bekas-bekas pelajar af yang lain macam rosma, khai, zarina, akma dan sebagainya... ada yang buat cerita that i want something from diddy... malah ada manusia di era ini sendiri yang membuat cerita kononnya i malas buat kerja kerana sibuk menjaga diddy... pernah juga perkara-perkara yang remeh temeh seperti 'pangkat' i sebagai pengurus peribadi diddy dipertikaikan... tak tahu sama ada i nak ketawa atau marah... but being in the publicity world, you have to learn a few tricks... to obey a few basic rules... and the first rule as publicist is, you have to smile... all the time... and that was what i do... a plastic smile pasted on my face...

i keep on going... whatever things yang datang, i cuba sedaya upaya untuk terus berdiri tegak... kadangkala ianya menguji tahap kesabaran yang tinggi dan pada masa yang sama, memberikan pengajaran yang tak dapat dibeli dengan wang ringgit... paling penting, ia membuatkan i lebih berhati-hati dalam membuat keputusan untuk masa depan, memilih kawan-kawan, dan menghargai pengorbanan... cuma, yang paling berat ialah ianya sering membuat i curiga dengan kebaikan orang lain... sesuatu yang i tak pernah fikirkan sebelum ini... kalau dulu, apa jua kebaikan dan pertolongan yang dibuat untuk i, i will accept it with an open heart... but now, rasa curiga selalu wujud... for someone like me, it's not a good feeling... when you have to re-evaluate your friendship with others, there is something wrong somewhere... pada satu tahap perasaan curiga yang menggunung membuatkan i memilih keputusan yang paling bodoh dalam hidup i... i choose to stay away from most of my friends... i just let a handful of them into my life... and even so, i limited my time with them...

for the past few months, i work very damn hard... like i have never work before... i throw in 16 to 18 hours a day including my weekends... my relationship pun ada masanya turn sour... jelousy memerangkap keadaan... i was hardly home either... masa dihabiskan di office dan di luar... kalau adapun masa-masa di rumah, i habiskan dengan membaca rujukan-rujukan yang ada, looking through those papers and internet, trying to cramp up as much as i can about the new thing that i want o venture... persoalan demi persoalan timbul setiap masa... is it worth it? is this what i want? am i doing the right thing? ada hari, i rasa i dapat jawapannya, but ada masanya it was back to square one... i have nervous break-down... at times i even lose my senses... my blood-pressure was way up... it reaches a point where my body couldn't take it anymore... physically and mentally exhausted... oh god!!! it was really hard to even jot it down... too private... and too humiliating... memang susah nak terangkan macam mana perasaan yang i lalui... it's hard to explain...

tapi Tuhan itu Maha Kaya, Maha Adil dan Maha Menyayangi... dalam pelbagai rintangan dan dugaan yang datang bertimpa-timpa, Dia anugerahkan rahmat-Nya dalam pelbagai bentuk dan rupa... salah satunya ialah keluarga yang memahami... restu dari my mom and my dad... Tuhan sahaja yang tahu pengorbanan yang mereka buat untuk i... dalam keadaan my dad yang tidak sihat, beliau gagahi juga untuk pulang ke kampung beberapa kali untuk berubatkan i... dalam ketika my mom sibuk menguruskan keadaan my dad, she stil have time to attend to me when i was realy sick... berubat kampung, berubat hospital dan bermacam-macam cara... sehingga kenduri doa selamat dan bacaan yassin... di mana ada jalan, di situ diusahakan... hanya Allah s.w.t. yang Maha Mengetahui... dan i juga dirahmatkan dengan great friends who were always around to support me... shonn, jolyn, rudy, vernon, joelee, fibie, audi, leen, sultanmuzaffar, hani, family diddy, ning baizura, uncle anuar, tina, tanty, suraya, syazwan, fendi, dean, abie, ijin, neo, kudsia, kak maznah, rostam, hatta, fie, wanie, famee, chail, nisa, laurielle, zulhusni, farihad, wink, roslen, anne dan ramai-ramai lagi... terlalu ramai... belum dicampur dengan teman-teman dari blog dan di office serta press lainnya... rahmat Tuhan yang tak terhingga!

during these ups and downs, f-tersix sdn bhd was born...

*to be continued*

the one about badrul and the next phase of his life... (part 1)...

a dream come true...

goshhh... it is something amazing... tak dapat nak digambarkan dengan perkataan... kadangkala i felt like it was light-years ago, but ada masanya terasa baru sajer semalam... those crazy ups and downs, the sleepless nights, the arguments, hot-temper, the sadness, the heart-breaking moment... yup, susah nak digambarkan dengan kata-kata apa yang i rasa...but the moment is here now... at least, my first step towards having my own company and doing something for myself...

i masih ingat that moment when i had the biggest argument with vernon... kami bergaduh besar... it was his first time at konsert akademi fantasia... watching it live... in his excitement, he totally 'forgot' that i am the biggest supporter of diddy... and he was going around giving what *he thinks* his 'honest' opinion... we gaduh besar on the phone, through smses... i was upset! really upset... well, honestly, i was more upset with myself... i thought i was fighting a loosing battle... how can i, someone who is nobody in the industry, change the perception of these influencial people?!? jenuh i bercerita dengan sesiapa yang i jumpa tentang kelebihan diddy... kering tekak i meminta teman-teman wartawan untuk menulis tentang diddy... i was mentally exausted... and suddenly, this mr manager came to the picture and based on just one concert, dia gelarkan persembahan diddy sebagai 'busuk'... i was shattered! macam-macam yang i rasa ketika tu... again, memang tak boleh nak digambarkan dengan perkataan...

but, knowing that our friendship is not built in one day, we managed to talk... we talk and talk and talk... to a level that he understood... to a point that he sees what i see... to a degree that he believes what i believe... one of his sms says "good morning... anytime you need to talk or bounce ideas about diddy or the album project, feel free to call ok... where i can help or offer an opinion, i will... ikhlas... the entertainment business is fraught with pitfalls and i don't want to see a friend invest his savings sia-sia.. you can count on my support..." i was speechless... the only thing that i could reply to him at that time was thank you... then came another sms "i realised you're serious about this project and about futhering diddy's career and therefore i am willing to support you all the way... study him first though before you commit your investment..." and yes, i studied him... there were times that i was hundred percent sure, but there were other times that i was in doubt...

bila diddy terkeluar daripada akademi, i thought to myself, this is it! i should grab the opportunity to do something great... you see, during one of our gathering kat rumah vernon di bangsar, there was a talk about doing a duet song antara yanie dan seorang pelajar akademi fantasia... i don't want to mention any names... tapi masa tu i diamkan diri sajer... but now, i really want to get diddy to do the duet with yanie, and the opportunity to talk to vernon presented itself during another gathering kat rumah dia during the pra-dengar lagu drama... i was a bit haru biru, my heart beats so hard that i think the whole condo-building tuh boleh dengar... and there it was... the handshake... nothing in writing... a little verbal conversation... but, there was a handshake... to seal the deal that diddy will be doing a duet song with yanie... mind you, at that time, i have yet to speak to anyone from maestro.. i have yet to think about anything else, but the handshake... the next day i received one sms from him "have spoken to sharon paul and aidit alfian to seek duet songs... will speak to hazami and audi next... other composers / producers worth trying are mohariz and azmeer...." again, i was stunt! now that the ball starts rolling, there is no turning back... i need to move fast... i catched up with aman from maestro, and he was ok with it! Alhamdulillah!!! but i still need to speak to melvyn since he is the head of maestro recording... managed to set an apppointement with him, and he is ok with it too!!! catch up with freddie fernandez, and he gives his greenlight!

then the afmasuk! terus jadi pening kepala... i need to sit down with diddy and after our little discussion, he really wants to be in... really... so i told him, i will support him all the way... but we do need to do something... need to change his image... his 'old' image has to go... he has to cut his hair... he has to change the way he perform... he has to be different... diddy dapat lagu diari seorang lelaki... he told me he doesn't really know the song... masa ni, i was away in phuket with rudy and neo for a short holiday... i sent him one sms "diddy, do your very best but have fun! lots and lots of fun! apa jua lagu yang diddy dapat, buat sampai diddy jatuh cinta dengan lagu tu... then other people will love it too... good luck!" balik dari phuket, hampir setiap hari we sitdown to go through his performance yang bakal dibuat... i want something different... i want somebody who is 20 years old, not 35 years old on the stage... vernon sms me after diddy's performance, "his colours are finally shining now!!! what did you say to him?"... leen sms, "i am so proud of diddy! rasa nak lari naik stage peluk dia... wah overina!" izreen sms, "bestnya diddy perform! muka dia nampak relax... enjoy jer!" then, another sms from vernon, "i've watched all his performances and tonight was his best vocally, feel-wise, and delivery... he showed a side of him i've never seen before, and honestly, i like it! if he keeps this up, the duet song audi wrote will suit him perfectly! you have done a great job!"

and on monday after that concert, i received the song from audi... after some minor changes, it's perfect!!!

*to be continued*