the one about badrul and 'badrul after sick'...

my heart goes out to keluarga Allahyarham emy... berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul... semoga keluarga Allahyarham emy tabah menghadapi dugaan Allah s.w.t. ini... walaupun i tak begitu rapat dengan Allahyarham seperti rakan-rakan a.m.t.y. yang lain, i tetap merasakan kehilangan amat sukar... but i am glad that i was given a chance to get to know her... so, before you go on to read the rest of this posting, please seikhlas hati take a moment untuk sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat Allahyarham...

Al-Fatihah...

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ovverrrr tauuu cik fibie superstar bagi title 'badrul after sick' to me... but i guess 'she' is right... maybe my body decided it's time for me to slow down a little bit after so many months trying to build the department... it's quite stressful... and what more, with the sad and shocking news yang i terima last monday, my mind couldn't take it... i kena anxiety attack... the worst ever... i have breathing difficulty, my heart beats so fast, it felt like it's going to pop-out of my chest, and my blood pressure shoot-up sky high... masa kat emergency room, my blood pressure was 172/104... i felt dizzy and i couldn't think of anything in particular except that everything was jumble-up in my head... the faces of my parents, my kids, my special someone, my friends... the doctor has to give me a jab to calm me down... the bed-sheet in that emergency room was soaking wet with my sweat... beberapa kali i mengucap dan baca Al-Fatihah... it took about one hour before i managed to calm myself... terus i sms a few friends yang dekat-dekat... oleh sebab dah lewat malam when i was admitted to the ward, i tak bagitau my parents... taknak diaorang bimbang dan terkejut malam-malam... only the next morning baru i called diaorang... tiga hari dua malam *macam kat hotel pulak* i stay in the hospital... buat blood test, stress test, e.c.g. and other test yang i dah lupa nama dia... sepanjang di hospital, tak putus-putus orang datang melawat, menelefon, menghantar sms dan berkirim salam...



well, i'm okay now... much better at least... Alhamdulillah, thanks to all your prayers and well wishes... to all yang datang melawat, yang call, yang hantar sms, yang berkirim salam dan yang tinggalkan pesanan di ruangan comment, thank you so much... i'm so blessed having such a great friends like all of you... so what is the conclusion? i have high-blood pressure and high cholestrol... and my stress level pun teruk jugak... now i'm on medication... plus i need to loose some weight, to cut down on my makan-makan dan minum-minum yang berlemak seperti masak lemak telur itik, gulai lemak ikan tenggiri; berkolestrol tinggi seperti telur, daging, sotong, udang dan makanan laut; yang masin seperti telur masin dan ikan masin; yang manis seperti teh tarik, teh ais, nescafe ais, milo ais, aiskrim; yang berkanji seperti nasi dan bubur;yang bersantan seperti gulai, kari dan nasi lemak; yang berminyak seperti ayam goreng, ikan goreng, daging goreng *ayooo yoooo aammma aapppaaa* dan semua makanan yang sewaktu dengannya, to exercise seperti banyakkan brisk-walking dan main bowling serta berswim swim and to relax myself more... tak boleh stress sangat-sangat *so, joe... jangan nak membebel!*




doctor benarkan i keluar hospital on thursday afternoon about three pm... my mom buat sayur labu air, but i was not allowed to eat rice *wuuuaarrrgghhh* takpalah untuk kebaikan diri sendiri... i spent thurday night at home watching tv... i managed to watch american idol's result day at 5.00pm... walaupun i tak dapat tengok the show previous night, i seronok sebab katharine dapat masuk final two... i takdalah letak harapan yang tinggi pun untuk dia menang nanti since taylor tuh tak pernah pun bottom three, but for the first time orang yang i pilih berjaya ke final... muhahahhaaa... i sebenarnya minat kat katharine since dia pergi audition lagi, but since takut jadi macam last year, bila dah tinggal final 6 macam tuh, baru i letak gambar dia kat my blog... yalah kan, nanti jadik macam idol the year before and dengan akademi fantasia sebelum nih... semua yang i pilih awal-awal lagi dah terkeluar... oh, about akademi fantasia, i think this year i nak pilih before diaorang masuk final 12 pulak, walaupun mungkin bakal membawa 'bahana' kepada pesertanya... tunggulah i update next week... i nak jadi presiden fanclub dia and i nak pilih ahli jawatan kuasa awal-awal... muhahahhaaa... lepas tuh pukul 8 malam hingga 10 i tengok amazing race final... again, i'm happy that those two hippies menang... they have fun, they respect other people and diaorang pun tetap tolong orang lain... bagus those frat-boys tak menang and kantoi kat last challenge... lepas tuh pulak i tengok project runaway season two... ada sorang mamat nih muka dia sejibik macam adam af2... kalau tak percaya, cuba-cubalah tengok project runaway on thursday pukul 10 malam... muzaffar mesti tengok tiap-tiap minggu nih... muhahahahaa... anyway, kesian aiman sampai tertidur-tidur tunggu time dia dapat tengok cartoon channel...




i terjaga about 3.00am, so i bangun buat sembahyang sunat dua rakaat and baca yassin... walaupun my head was still a little bit dizzy, tapi i rasa tenang sikit... next morning kononnya nak exercise sikit so i pergi beli roti kat kedai near my house jalan kaki... usually naik kereta... ohhh, lupa pulak nak cerita, masa kat hospital hari khamis pagi tuh, i memang dah tak tahan sangat nak smokok *errrr, i know! i know!* tapi memang dah tak tahan sangat... so dengan pakai seluar tiga suku, t-shirt yang buat tidur, tangan belah kiri ada tag hospital and tangan belah kanan pulak ada tiub tempat nurse ambik darah tuh, i pergi lah keluar dari hospital... tangan siap selup dalam poket nak cover line... next to s.j.m.c. tuh ada domino's pizza, so i pergilah situ sebab jauh sikit... baru jer light kan ciggaratte tuh, tiba-tiba hujan turun dengan selebat-lebatnya... halamak, kejap lagi doctor nak datang check, so nak tak nak, pergi seven-eleven carik umbrella... yang ada cuma umbrella warna pink and warna orange... dah takda choice, pilihlah jugak warna orange tuh... bukan orange sikit-sikit tau, tapi memang 'shocking' orange yach... yang jenis seratus batu pun orang boleh nampak! so, berbalik pada cerita asal pergi beli roti tuh, sebab panas terik, i bawaklah payung orange tuh... boleh tak anak makcik kedai tuh tanya 'pakcik nih peminat zahid ke?'... cissss, dah lah panggil pakcik, sebab payung tuh warna orange, terus kata i peminat zahid... mujur i nih memang peminat zahid and mujur budak tuh tak sebut nama yang sorang lagih tu, kalau tidak memang dah kena libas dengan payung shocking orange tuh... and nasib baik bukan akak ayu yang pergi beli roti pakai eye shadow kaler oren! sebab budak tuh memang taste dia sangat-sesangat...




friday night i pergi training bowling with my team sebab hari sabtu esoknya i ada tournament... bagus jugak dapat exercise and keluarkan peluh... since i miss out a lot of training this week, i kena work extra hard for tomorrow... don't want to let my team down... on saturday tuh memang banyak team... kalau tak silap i, ada 24 team semuanya... ramai jugak yang main because this is astro bowling team tournament so semua yang under astro dan syarikat-syarikat di bawah aaan macam amp radio, maestro dan lain-lain pun boleh ambik bahagian... so people like zahid, khai, rosma, mawi, sahri dan maestro staff pun turut ambik bahagian... my team consists of hafiz as the team captain, jolyn, kieran and myself... so agak-agak menang tak? well, i will update it in the next entry... till then, jaga makan dan minum, jangan stress, kuruskan badan, banyakkan exercise dan senyumlah senyumlah selalu... ahai cekmek molek...