the one about badrul and the urge to start blogging again...

single cover...

lama giler tak blog... kadang-kadang masa yang tak mengizinkan... most of the time i'm too lazy to write anything... and as usual bila bukak blog kepala jadi blank... and i started blog hopping from one blog to the other and lepas tuh terus lupa nak tulis apa-apa... muhahaha... banyak benda yang terjadi in my life but i guess semua orang pun lalui benda yang sama jugak... sometimes bila i tengok blog orang lain, mak datuk banyak giler benda-benda baru which i thought my blog dah ketinggalan jauh... tapi buat masa sekarang i want to try my best to focus on blogging rather than on the new gadgets that they have... nanti bila ada masa yang lebih sesuai i will start to change the look of my blog here and there...

cd label...

anyway, most of you mungkin dah dengar single baru duet between diddy and nur... if you have not, go to diddy's blog or audi mok and listen to it on their imeem... i suker giler with that song... tak kisahlah orang nak kata bias pun... muhahhaha... tapi the arrangement is so beautiful and suara diddy and nur really compliment each other... of course another unique thing about that single which i think 'lari' dari the usual hit song was that lirik nya berdialog between two singers... ada dua perkataan sajer that were repeated during the whole song... orang kata kita kena tulis lirik yang diulang-ulang especially the chorus part untuk mudah orang ingat but sometimes we have to do something out of the ordinary... another thing that make this song special was that diddy and nur sendiri yang tulis lirik lagu nyer...

nur inside cover...

the story in the song was break into three parts... first part tuh macam diddy tengah mengadu kat nur about his dream to spend his life with the girl he loved was shattered... so nur kira macam pujuk dia lah... the second part was bila he kind of masih cuba nak terima kenyataan and she was telling him to stop drowning himself in sadness... and the bridge part tuh bila dia dah macam terima dah... the last line before the final chorus tuh 'kini ku mengerti...' as if he has accepted his fate... the last chorus tuh macam dah move on... hah, lebih kurang macam tuh lah cerita nya... campur dengan elemen music cina dalam lagu nih memang buatkan sayu giler... and most importantly, tak rasa bosan dengar berulang-ulang...

diddy inside cover...

ramai jugak lah orang tanya pasal single 'sudah' nih... macam kat mana nak beli etc... sebenarnya takda dalam plan i nak jual this single sebab kos untuk printing is quite high... yalah kan kalau nak print setakat seratus atau dua ratus tuh memang tinggi kos dia and the only way for me to lower the cost is to print at least 1000 ke atas... then again, kalau takda orang nak beli rugi lah jugak kan... hari tuh ada jugak kita jual during gaza at rm8 but it was totally at cost price... we donated 100% hasil jualan tersebut to gaza... tengoklah macam mana nanti kalau ada permintaan yang banyak, then i will think about printing it...

credit page...

okay lah... for a start i think i dah tulis panjang jugak... we are currently working on diddy's solo single... ada dua buah lagu yang memang dah confirm and we actually need to sit down with beberapa orang composers and lyricists lagih to work on other songs... i'm hoping that we can release a full album this year... insyaAllah... sekarang nih kena buat plan yang rapi... apa-apa pun i'm happy that at least diddy dah ada full album... full album nih macam passport for you to be a full fledged singer...

sooooo good to be back blogging again...

the one about badrul and ...

al-fatihah

i miss him dearly... i don't even know where to start... i lost my best friend of 28 years... he passed away last night... susah i nak cakap apa yang terbuku di hati... bila i bukak posting nih pun i just want to write apa jer yang terlintas kat kepala dan apa yang nak diluahkan oleh hati... tapi i tak tahu kat mana nak mula... 28 long years... sejak dari sekolah... he was my best friend... berkongsi masalah dan macam-macam bersama...

al-fatihah

i baru balik dari hantar single terbaru diddy kat radio stations... perasaan masa tuh rasa berbunga sebab we work so hard on the new single... i reached home around 6.30pm, exhausted... but happy... i watched american idol for awhile... then around 7 something i received a phone call... it was zawadi... and i was happy... i was always happy when he called... before i can hear any voice from the other end, i dah cakap banyak... 'hey ja ... mu sihat ke? aku baru jer hantar'... then i stopped... i heard someone crying on the other end... 'yoe... yoee... ja takdok doh... ja takdok doh yoe... baru jer... sebelum magrib...' that was his wife... 'innalillah...' i was numbed... 'yoe tolong bagi tau kawan-kawan yang lain'... 'ok...' itu jer yang mampu i cakap... i letak phone and started calling my friends... i called azhar... then i called rozi... then nizam... all our terengganu friends... our school mate... our close and dear friends... i was still numbed... smses starts pouring in... phone calls after phone calls... last sekali, i called my dad... i told him...

al-fatihah

'yoe bakpa mung berenti kerja dengan astro? gaji mung kan bagus doh?
'aku nok buat sendiri ja... letih doh kerja dengan orang...'
'takpa lah kalu gitu... janji mung kerja molek lah... aku sokong jer'
'album diddy keluar doh...'
'ya ker? aku carik doh terengganu nih tapi takdok pung... takpa esok aku cari lagi...'
he always supported me... antara orang yang sentiasa berikan kekuatan for me to move forward... then he told me this...
'aku jumpa doh album diddy... baru sampai kat kedai cina tuh... pastu aku nampok poster diddy aku suruh cina tuh letok... dia malas nok letok... aku ambik poster diddy pastu aku koyok poster orang putih hok dia letok kat dinding tuh... aku letok poster diddy kat situ... aku kabor ke dia nih poster artis kawan aku nih...' he laughed...

al-fatihah

setiap kali balik terengganu, he was the first person that i called... tak kiralah masa i kerja dengan era dulu atau bila dah kerja sendiri... he touches so many people... masa era ada pesta bola kat terengganu, he came to our hotel dengan berbungkus-bungkus nasi dagang to feed us all... dia beli keropok lekor... dia ajak datang makan tengahari kat gerai dia... walaupun dia hanya bekerja meniaga makan tengahari tapi dia sangat kaya dengan budi pekerti... dia sangat kaya dengan kudrat... setiap orang yang i kenalkan dengan dia akan rasa kasih dengan budi bahasanya... walau seletih manapun, dia tak pernah menghampakan sesiapa...

al-fatihah

keluarga kami sangat rapat... he called my parents mummy and daddy... i called his mom mak... macam yang dia panggil dan macam yang i panggil... my parents dah anggap dia macam anak sendiri dan begitulah sebaliknya... i kenal semua adik beradiknya, dia kenal semua adik beradik i... zaman sekolah dulu kami sama-sama gilakan sheila majid... mana saja sheila majid pergi, mesti kita orang pergi... kemudian bila habis sekolah menengah, dia dapat tawaran belajar di universiti malaya... i bawak diri sendiri... tapi dia tak pernah pandang rendah pada sesiapa... setiap kali balik terengganu, he will buy me something from kuala lumpur... cd or t-shirts... kemudian i dapat sambung belajar and kita jarang sikit berjumpa... bila i buat practical training, i menumpang kat rumah sewa diaorang... zawadi, nizam and kudin kat taman kosas... azhar stays near by and selalu jugak datang lepak... masa tuh lah ianya bermula... dia selalu bengkak kaki... banyak kali jugak suruh dia pergi check doctor tapi dia tak mahu... dia lebih percayakan bomoh... and bila bomoh kata dia kena buatan orang, dia percaya... kemudian dia dapat kerja kat syarikat jepun... masa tuhlah dia dapat tahu, dia kena penyakit buah pinggang... company dia tak support dialisis... dia kena bayar sendiri... so dia decided untuk berhenti kerja sebab tak mampu nak bayar dialisis... kalau tak bekerja, kerajaan negeri terengganu akan tanggung perbelanjaan dialisis, so he decided to go back to terengganu...

al-fatihah

he married a beautiful and kind lady, yus... against the odd, walaupun doctor kata mustahil, Tuhan kurniakan diaorang a beautiful daughter named nurin... he decided to berniaga makan tengahari untuk tampung hidup... dari seorang yang berkelulusan tinggi dan berjawatan tinggi, his life changed... tapi dia tetap orang yang sama... we shared a lot of things during our younger years... the odd ball... we made up stupid jokes and laughed out loud even in the bus... we travelled to port dickson just to watch the sunset... we were sheila majid's stalkers... we were duran duran biggest fans... we sang in the rain even when we were tone-deaf, well at least he was... we slept on the beach near rozi's old house watching the stars and talked about the future... we went to pulau kapas in a group where azhar hilang cincin dia... when my parents went to mekah, he and azwar yang hantar i pergi uitm melaka... kalau i nak listkan satu persatu...

al-fatihah

last november, i went back to terengganu... ada digi event and diddy was performing... as usual, he was there with his family supporting us... bought us keropok lekor to bring back to kl, bawak pergi makan dan macam-macam lagi... i remember he told me that he really wants to come to kl and jumpa my parents... dah lama tak jumpa katanya... he also wants to take his daughter jalan-jalan... jumpa saudara mara... so he made plan to come during school holidays... i told him my schedule... so a few weeks ago he came down to kl with his family... he looks radiant... bila i cakap dia nampak dah berisi, dia cuma cakap sebab banyak air terperangkap... dah beberapa hari tak buat dialisis... he had to do dialisis three times a week... tangan dia memang dah bengkak kesan selalu kena masuk jarum... dia selalu cakap kat i dia memang takut dengan jarum tapi dia tahan jer... lagi satu, nurse yang handle dialisis kat kl nih tak berhati-hati macam nurse kat terengganu yang dia memang dah biasa... sebab tuh dia malas sangat nak datang kl... tapi this time dia memang nak datang kl... so i made plan with my whole family to go for seafood kat portklang... my sister yang dari penang pun ada sama with her whole family... he seems to have fun... dia cakap that was the best seafood ever... dia borak-borak panjang with my mom and dad...

al-fatihah

i cried for the first time today... i don't know who to call... i don't have his wife's number... all i have was his... i dialed his number... i cried... when his wife picked up the call, i cried and cried and cried... i tak tahu nak cakap apa... i just cried... the pain in my heart... the empty space... the fact that i'm not going to see him again... when i reached home, i looked through my old photos... i couldn't find his pictures... i look everywhere... i couldn't find any... i cried again... i don't want to forget his face... i don't want to forget his smile... i don't want to forget his voice calling out my name... Allahyarham Zawadi bin Abdullah... semoga Allah s.w.t. menempatkan rohmu bersama-sama orang yang beriman dan beramal soleh... semoga rohmu tenang... teman-teman, sedekahkanlah al-fatihah untuk Allahyarham...

al-fatihah

the one about badrul and blog bersawang...

diddy back to school...

waahhh, seriously lama gilerr tak update blog... dah nak masuk hampir sebulan... bukannya takder benda nak tulis but everytime i mengadap blog, terus hilang apa yang nak ditulis... sometimes, kalau jalan sorang-sorang or tengah drive atau yang sewaktu dengannya, macam-macam idea and stuff yang nak ditulis, but lepas bukak laptop jer, macam hilang idea tuh semua... tapi sebab hari nih hari pertama in such a long time that i do have time merehatkan diri, i just bukak jer new posting without knowing apa yang nak di update...

since raya haji hari tuh, i tak jumpa my parents... diaorang semua pergi bercuti kat penang at my sister's house bawak aiman and ellisya sekali... memang sunyi sepi lah jugak sebab kalau nak dikira, selain dari masa pergi haji dan umrah dulu, yang nih masa yang paling lama i tak jumpa diaorang... tapi bagus jugak sebab dapatlah my parents merehatkan diri and jumpa cucu-cucu diaorang yang lain...

last week hari rabu diddy baru habis shoot his second tele-movie... it was so damn funny to see him in school uniform sebab ada scenes kat sekolah... muhahaha... i remember masa kita orang pergi beli baju sekolah tuh kat one shop in ampang, the chinese lady tuh macam pelik tengok... siap try dulu baju dan seluar sekolah tuh to make sure size dia okay... lepas tuh i cakap kat nyonya tuh kad pengenalan diddy *alah, dia bukan kenal pun diddy* hilang baru sekarang jumpa and dia baru nak masuk tingkatan satu... nyonya tuh siap tanya taknak beli beg sekolah yang ada gambar superman and friends lagih... muhahaha... sakit perut gelak keluar dari kedai tuh...

anyway, at least dengan posting nih my blog takda lah bersawang untuk bulan december nih... muhahaha... at least adalah satu posting jugak kan... so, i nak ambik kesempatan nih nak ucapkan selamat pengantin baru kepada mawi dan ekin, semoga berbahagia ke anak cucu... and to all my christian friends, merry christmas and happy new year...

the one about badrul and a new day, a new way and a new errr... a new whatever...

last week was bizarre! before my birthday, i told myself tahun nih taknak celebrate lah... bukan merajuk ker apa, tapi rasa macam dah tua sikit dah... muhahaha... but macam dah terbalik pulak jadinya... one day before my birthday, i keluar jalan-jalan and terserempak with my college mates, borak-borak then diaorang remember that the next day tuh harijadi i, so we kind of celebrated it... lepas tuh on my birthday i ada voice over recording and of course everyone tahu my birthday so again we ended up having birthday lunch celebration... huhahuha sampai petang as if dia orang nih tak kerja pulak... muhahaha... sampailah ke hari nih ada ajer birthday celebrations... and bila i kata birthday celebration, mesti ada kek... so i can expect to gain extra kilos from this week alone...

actually i realised one thing, since 2002, i've always celebrated my birthday with celebrities... i think that year was with khai, then after that with kaer, with akma, then with ning and nikki, lepas tuh pulak dengan diddy... dengan datuk siti nurhaliza jer belum lagih... muhahaha... but one thing for sure, you guys were actually the stars... everyone yang keep wishing me happy birthday every year... this year alone bukan sajer kat blog, but also on facebook and through phone calls and sms... thank you so much... kalau ada yang i terlepas reply tuh, mintak maaf banyak-banyak but i truly appreciate it...

anyway, last week ada satu hari tuh hujan selebat-lebat alam... it was about 4pm and i tengah lepak-lepak kat rumah sambil tengok astro yang sekejap ada dan sekejap takda tuh... yalah kan, hari hujan... then bila i dengar-dengar balik, eh macam takda guruh pulak... one thing kat rumah i nih, kalau ada lightning jer mesti suis besar tuh automatik off, so macam first time pulak benda tuh tak set off... hhmmm... terus teringat kereta i yang parking kat luar tuh dah tak basuh sebulan dua dah... terus i capai baldi, letak car shampoo and dalam hujan lebat tuh basuh kereta... muhahaha... teringat zaman-zaman kecik dulu basuh kereta datsun 120y my dad dalam hujan... seriously memang rasa pelik sangat masa tuh sebab kepala i mesti teringat balik zaman kecik-kecik dulu... entah macam mana nasib tak baik, baru habis shampoo kereta, hujan dah start renyai-renyai pulak... since i dah basah kuyup, malas pulak nak alih kereta, so angkutlah air dari paip simbah kereta... lepas tuh neighbour i selang tiga buah rumah baru balik kerja... dia kerja polis trafik and very friendly... siap hon lagih balik kerja... then baru i realised, i basuh kereta pakai t-shirt and my boxer short jer... muhahahaa... nasib baik takda orang pengsan...


hujung minggu memang sibuk jugak sebab diddy ada dua show back to back but i still have some time untuk pergi my birthday selebration yang kudsia buat kat rumah dia... ramai jugak kawan-kawan yang datang macam shonny, muzaffar, azni, farouk, tanty, shahrin, yin yin, joseph, sonia, jeanne, vishnu, denise and priscilla... tina tak dapat datang sebab kena pergi penang, jolyn and hafiz ada wedding kat batu pahat and hawa pulak ada show boyfriend dia... but we had a lot of fun... seriously guys, thank you so much... i think pukul tiga pagi kot baru balik rumah walaupun ada kerja the next day... siapa lah yang kena saman sebab lesen mati tuh kan... tak tau... muhahaha...

siang tadi pergi wedding corrie kat keramat... ramai orang, tapi kita sampai lambat sebab jalan jam giler... and another thing, diddy pulak tertinggal hadiah kat rumah so terpaksa patah balik ambik... sampai-sampai tuh terserempak dengan rosyam noor and family yang dah nak balik... actually sedih jugak sebab bila tanya leya, tak nampak kelibat budak-budak akademi fantasia yang dia pernah ajar tuh datang... yang ada cuma diddy... mungkin yang lain sibuk kot... tapi takkan lah dalam banyak-banyak af tuh, semua sibuk? hmmmmm... jumpa jugak dengan ummi fauziah yang sekarang nih tengah sibuk buat teater monolog... siapa-siapa yang tak pergi lagih tuh should go and watch... tinggal dua hari jer lagih... balik daripada wedding, i melepak kejap kat kedai diddy kat sebelah tesco ampang tuh sementara tunggu jam reda sikit...

balik rumah lepas tuh i just melepak sambil tengok tv... flip channels, tertengok this documentary pasal bus terminal, titled 'shanghai bus terminal'... seriously, memang mengalir airmata... kisah orang-orang yang nak balik kampung sempena tahun baru cina... sedih sangat bila dia orang bercerita tentang kehidupan dan kesusahan hidup masing-masing... these four guys yang kerja kat construction, dah setahun tak pernah dapat gaji... employer diaorang cuma bagi duit tambang bas untuk balik ke kampung... this one lady yang buta huruf, ketinggalan bas dan tak tahu macam mana nak balik kampung sebab dia dah takda duit... nasib baik dia dapat merayu tapi still kena deduct some money and one guy tolong dia dapatkan tiket balik... it was so sad... but thin one particular old man yang sangat-sangat menyedihkan... he worked for a year saving his money tapi kena rompak... one young man dengar cerita sedih tuh siap belikan dia makanan and one bottle of coke, tapi dia taknak ambik... masa interview dia tuh, dia cakap something like, 'semua orang lalui benda yang susah dalam hidup... awak pun lalui kehidupan yang susah jugak kan? tapi hidup mesti kena teruskan... kadangkala orang boleh kata apa saja tapi kehidupan sebenar diaorang mungkin lagi teruk daripada orang yang dikata...' wow, such a powerful words... if you have time, try lah tengok repeat documentary nih... memang sedih dan menyentuh perasaan...

oh lupa pulak nak cakap, last week one day after my birthday, i keluar with my parents... then my dad told me, 'dah dekat nak masuk 40 nih, bawak-bawaklah berubah apa yang perlu... dah masuk umur 40 nanti, Tuhan dah tutup pintu hati kita, susah nak berubah... fikirlah yang terbaik untuk diri kita dunia dan akhirat... jangan ingat dunia jer...'

insyaAllah...

the one about badrul and another year older...

so... on tuesday i will be a year older... cepatnya masa berlalu... pejam celik pejam celik dah setahun lagi usia meningkat... seriously right now my mind is blank... tak tahu nak tulis apa... but i know for sure i don't want to update my blog on tuesday... banyak benda yang i belum capai... dunia dan akhirat... hmmmm... Ya Allah ya Tuhan ku, semoga dipanjangkan usiaku, dimurahkan rezeki, diberi petunjuk dan hidayah, mejadi anak yang soleh serta menjadi hamba-Mu yang taat... amin...

the one about badrul and the need of more than 24 hours in a day...

diddy during the script reading...

i've been busy... other than checking my emails and facebook, i don't really have that much time to update my blog... busy... for the last two weeks memang packed with events and other stuff... hampir setiap hari balik rumah pukul 2 atau 3 pagi... bila dah sampai rumah memang dah letih habis... balik dari show kat terengganu, i spent the whole saturday and sunday preparing, cooking and catering for 40 people... one of my close friends nak pergi haji, so i cooked untuk majlis kecil-kecilan... lepas tuh pergi tengok rakaman zoom in ning baizura kat rtm... monday pulak ada meeting and script reading for diddy... this coming week pun busy jugak... for the past few days i've spent time with diddy to prepare him for his first telemovie... yes, i'm happy to say that diddy dapat offer untuk berlakon telemovie titled 'rebab tidak bertali'... tak cukup dengan cabaran as his first telemovie, hampir sekeluruhan telemovie nih dia kena cakap in kelantanese dialect... muhahaha... giler mencabar... but i have a feeling he will do great... i've never seen someone so eager to learn and so hungry to do the best that he can... tomorrow i'm taking him to watch 'budak kelantan'... selain daripada menjadi learning process for him, i heard that the movie memang bagus... so kira serampang dua mata lah...

anyway, i'm in the middle of looking for artist manager and/or personal assistant for diddy... we have work so hard for the last two years and i rasa diddy dah cukup confident, matang dan selesa to have a personal assistant or artist manager to assist him... he just need a minimum supervision from me... i will still be in-charged, and will oversee the whole operation but with the company's expansion, i need to concentrate on other stuff as well... 2009 will be the year for f-tersix to go into tv production pulak, apart from f-tersix dive team yang dah ada more than 30 students... and we are also working on diddy's second album and hopefully his new single will be released early next year... insyaAllah... sekarang nih i tengah buat job description for that position plus the offer and benefit... nanti bila dah selesai, i will post it here on my blog, so if anyone yang interested nak apply, you can get in touch with me... soon... but not yet... okay, need to get some sleep... tomorrow nak pergi tengok movie and we will have another script-reading after that...