the one about badrul and few entries in one...

at the hitz.tv birthday bash...

hitz.tv birthday bash

i'm having some problem with my laptop again... i think the hard disk is going to crash soon... need to call acer secepat mungkin... anyway, since i dah lama tak update and i know next week i won't be able to update sebab sibuk, i think i letak banyak sikit gambar and cerita lebih sikit kot... takut i terlupa pulak... i terlambat nak update pasal hitz.tv birthday bash a few weeks back... sebenarnya masa i tahu diddy was given a chance to perform during the bash, i memang rasa excited giler... it was an opportunity not to be missed... yalah kan, bukan selalu penyanyi yang orang anggap from 'malay' programme dapat perform in english station... so lepas discuss and fikir and looking from good and bad point of view, we decided for diddy to perform lagu feel from robbie williams and superstitions from stevie wonder... seboleh-bolehnya i taknak dia perform any songs from af concert... nak jugak semua orang tahu that he can do other songs as well... mula-mula tu pening jugak nak carik minus-one apatah lagi in short notice tapi dengan pertolongan ramai kawan-kawan, we managed to get it... i watched him perform during rehearsal and i felt that he was going to nail it... yalah kan, lagu superstitions tuh quite old but he brought his own flavor and freshness to it...

gaya penghibur baru...

but of course kita hanya merancang... bila i tengok schedule artis-artis yang akan perform, i realised that all of them are underground band... sama ada yang bertanding dalam blast-off or yang memang dah perform with their group... hanya diddy dan amirul saja yang boleh dikira 'main-stream'... kalau nak dikira memang different target group of audience... simply put, wrong audience for diddy... tapi masa tu i masih lagi berfikiran positive... to me, if they were given a chance to listen to diddy's voice, it shouldn't matter that diddy was not from underground scene... to make matter worst, hujan turun selebat-lebatnya sehingga the recorded show kena tangguh... diddy yang sepatutnya perform pukul lapan malam were push to almost 11pm... since dah lewat, the producer decided to cut one song from each performers, so diddy went with superstitions... true, almost everyone tak kenal siapa dia and ignored him when he walked on stage, but towards the end they did applaused even if it was not as loud as other people's performances... being new to 'this' situation, diddy was devastated... thank god for mukhlis who was there and managed to give diddy some pep-talk... all in all, it was a precious experience for diddy... and of course for me too... one day, i will make these people listen to diddy... i promise, insyaAllah...

shayne ward?...

light & easy rebranding...

okay, now it's known as lite fm... the rebranding took place at shook, starhill... memang class... with wine, expensive looking finger food, fresh fruit juice etc... memang tahap-tahap pendengar lite fm lah... most of them in jacket and evening gown... tapi biasalah kan, ada jugak yang tak pandai baca apa yang tertulis pada kad jemputan, so datang pakai t-shirt and jeans... malaysian being malaysian... i was quite busy entertaining clients and press so tak dapatlah nak ambik gambar banyak... anyway, i managed to take this guy's picture, whom i think is shayne ward... i pun tak kenal shayne ward and i pun tak tahu if i spelled his name correctly... the little info yang collect sana sini was that he was the winner of one singing reality show in u.k. called x-factor yang macam american idol jugak... suara dia memang best, tapi macam boy-band best... kalau tak tengok stage memang ingat one of the boyband from u.k. macam westlife and others... adalah sikit kelakar bila time mc announce dia to come onstage to perform... manager matsaleh dia jalan wahhhh macam panglima masuk dewan... dengan tiga empat orang bodyguard nampak macam superstar sangat-sangat... but again, with these people yang half drunk and mungkin tak familiar dengan dia, tak ramai sangat pedulikan dia kecuali a few girls yang dok jerit-jerit cute! cute! cute! lepas dah nyanyi tiga lagu, semua nih escort lah dia pergi duduk kat tempat dia macam ada orang nak serbu gitu tapi takda orang pay any attention again... lepas tuh i tengok dia duk lalu ulang alik mula-mula dengan bodyguards tapi lama-lama bila semua orang buat tak tahu, dia dah jalan sorang-sorang jer... manager dia pun dah tak nampak snobbish dah... muhahahahaa... okay, another good lesson to learn from!

atas: me, shazwan, zul, fairuz and sue... bawah: diddy, rudy, liza and dean...

rudy's birthday...

i got a call from rudy masa awal-awal kat event rebranding lite fm...

"dah hantar gambar dah?"

"dah... hantar tiga gambar... but one in each email sebab takut fail besar!"

"errr, taknak wish happy birthday ke?"

"happy birthday? eh, hari nih birthday nkau ke?"

"ya lah..."

"oohhh sorrryyy... sorryyy... happy birthday rudy... sorry..."

"takpa... malam nih kita ada small gathering... kak sue yang ajak makan-makan... tempat biasa... datanglah... pukul 11 malam..."

"okay, i'll be there..."

terus kelam kabut and excuse myself from my other colleagues sebab nak pergi carik hadiah... macam ni lah selalu bila dapat tahu everything last minute... went up to other floors in starhill sambil call neo mintak pendapat...

"nak beli purse ke?"

"rasanya dia dah ada kot... purse dia dah memang besar..."

"beg?"

"alah beli beg baru pun nanti beg hijau dia yang kusam tuh jugak yang dipakai..."

"habis tuh?"

"beli swimming trunk lah... dia selalu pergi swimming..."

"yang two-piece ker?" *gelak joke bodoh sendiri*

"bla bla bla bla" i cannot remember the whole conversation because i tengah berdiri kat depan kedai louis vuitton... ada some promotion pulak tuh... i totally lupa pasal that conversation... then bila dah habis berkhayal, i decided to go somewhere else... dalam hujan renyai-renyai dengan pakai suit sepasang and without umbrella, i walked to lot10 to look for birthday present yang i tak tahu apa benda nak beli... kemudian masuk kedai guess... called zulhusni tanya if rudy pakai jam ke tidak, zul cakap tak... nanti tangan dia ellergy... hhmmmmm... pusing punya pusing punya pusing, i decided to go back to starhill and get him a shirt... terus called vernon...

"kau tau tak hari ni birthday rudy..."

*dengan penuh confident walaupun memang tak ingat langsung* "ingat... i dah wish dah..." *hannjeeng sangat statement padahal belum call lagi nih*

"nak beli apa birthday present kat rudy nih?"

"ning and i will get something" *memang haannjjjennng kan statement dia*

"i tak tau apa nak beli lah... zul cakap dia tak pakai jam... maybe i'll get him a raoul shirt..."

"a raoul shirt? hhhmmm... rather than raoul shirt, why don't you get him a mont blanc pen? *hannjeeng giler statement*

i wanted to say 'i'm disinclined to bla bla bla...' tapi sebab ayat dia berbelit-belit and i don't really know bahasa orang hoitty toitty nih, i just carutkan jer dia balik... again, walked in the rain, naik atas ke raoul and terus jer beli... malas nak fikir-fikir lagi since i got some more work to do downstairs at shook...

happy birthday dearest rudy...

seperti biasanya, i was the first there... nih i dah kira termasuk jalan yang salah, buat u-turn sampai dua kali, pusing kiri dan kanan baru sampai tempat yang dijanjikan, but i was still early... muhahahahaa... and that was not the first time... apa lagi, terus call rudy and kena carut satu round... first part of the birthday present i guess... but we do have lots and lots of fun... bermacam-macam cerita, dari cerita-cerita pasal bercuti sampailah cerita pasal dr.fazley kahwin, sampailah cerita album dan sebagainya... the food was fabulous and the cake was amazing... oh vern, aku dah bagi single tuh kat dean, rudy, zulhusny, syazwan and fairuz, so nanti aku nak mintak ganti dengan nkau...

to rudy, happy birthday my dearest friend... you have been such a great friend... you are sweet, respectful and honest... you are kind, gentle and supportive... you are someone that i can trust my life with... and on top of all that, you are a true diva! so, best wishes from me and hope you will find someone who will love you and really deserves you...

model material... muhahaha...

photoshoot...

two photoshoots dah arranged before hari raya and nak buat lepas hari raya... but both nak buat di rumah... satunya dengan i-remaja with jemang and another one dengan emma from urtv... tapi sayang, i tak sempat langsung ambik gambar sebab sibuk kemaskan bilik tidur untuk photoshoot tuh... oh ya, photoshoot untuk diddy sebenarnya tapi buat kat my house *terimakasih hafiz* kerana sebab-sebab yang tak dapat dielakkan... takpalah, kira sama jer sebab diddy pun selalu melepak kat situ bila habis show or bila kena pergi early show... sekali lagi hujan yang teramat lebat menyebabkan jalan jam dan photoshoot session terpaksa ditangguhkan masanya... dari pukul 2 petang sampailah pukul 6 lebih baru habis both photoshoot... to jemang, emma, and abang-abang photographers, sorry lah ya if we are not such a good host... bagi minum air dalam tin jer and kuih raya yang ada... memang ler tak sempat nak buat apa-apa but i hope all the pictures turn out great... tak sabar nak tengok nanti...

'under the sea'...

then, there was another photoshoot dengan majalah hai with nazmi... photoshoot nih sebenarnya telah lama nak diarrange kan untuk aiman and ellisya tapi kerana beberapa masalah seperti minggu periksa dan i pulak sibuk, jadi hanya dapat dibuat hari rabu yang lepas... on the day of photoshoot, i called nazmi and bagi suggestion to include diddy in the photoshoot... well, other people might think macam serampang dua mata or kill two birds with one stone, tapi from my point of view, i wanted to put more commercial weight to the photoshoot... ya lah kan, bukankah lebih baik kalau ada artis bersama-sama daripada muka i yang terpampang kat majalah tuh? muhahahhaa... mula-mula we decided nak buat photoshoot tuh kat taman klcc jer but cuaca tak mengizinkan so we moved in to aquaria... bagus jugak sebab ada 'tarikan' for the kids supaya tak rasa bosan and at the same time, gambar-gambar pun nampak meriah sikit...

resting...

habis photoshoot dah almost 5.00pm... lepas minum jap, terus bawak diaorang balik rumah... both kids dah tertidur keletihan dalam kereta tapi tetap seronok sebab dapat duit raya dari nenek, auntie dan uncle dia... in the car aiman dah plan apa nak beli dengan duit raya yang dia dapat... hhmmmmm... thanks nazmi and hopefully everything is okay... sorry sebab walaupun dah lama kita rancangkan tapi baru minggu lepas dapat kita buat the photoshoot session... harap-harap soon i will be able to come and visit you and huzz at the office...

diddy...

so now i'm in the process of collecting songs for diddy's album... dah ada dua tiga lagu yang i dah dapat, tapi masih dalam proses untuk memilih yang terbaik... susah jugak sebenarnya but i'm blessed with friends yang sama-sama ingin membantu sesama teman dan bukan yang hanya ada phd jer... so banyak nasihat dan pandangan yang i dapat... yalah kan, this is totally new to me and i memang nak kena banyak belajar... really banyak... kena belajar jadi professional dan tak membiarkan apa yang i suka dan tak suka mempengaruhi apa yang i perlu buat... i have to take into consideration of apa yang majoriti suka dan tidak suka... buat masa sekarang nih, jalan ada lah bumpy sikit but takda aral yang besar sangat so i sangat-sangat bersyukur...

'saling terpesona' is now on era and hot fm... ramai yang dengar dah bagi feedback dekat i... ada yang suka dengan kelainannya dan ada jugak yang compare dengan 'caramu'... apa yang i boleh katakan is that walaupun team yang buat lagu nih adalah team yang sama, but this song is not kesinambungan 'caramu'... all in all, the feedback is positive, Alhamdulillah... if you really enjoy it, keep requesting for it kat pilihanmu di era and hot fm corner ya...

as you know, diddy and yanie are also in the early stage of nomination for anugerah bintang popular berita harian 2006... so help to vote for them as well ya... dan yang terbaru, diddy juga tercalon untuk kategori bintang baru lelaki paling glamor majalah urs dalam anugerah urs glamor 2006 yang akan berlangsung pada 30 november nanti...

ellisya...

introducing ellisya... bakal model nih... muhahahaha... baru lima tahun but she's already tall... belum apa-apa lagi dah pandai bergaya... banyak sangat tengok buku fesyen before the photoshoot sampai tiap masa nak ambik gambar dia sengetkan kepala dia... muahahhaaa... it was so funny... sekarang nih tengah menghafal lagu 'saling terpesona' so bila dah hafal nanti, i nak suruh dia duet dengan cousing dia meimei...

aiman...

aiman macam biasalah... going to be in standard two in 2007... dah besar panjang dah... and next year dia jadi prefect... sekarang nih pun dah sibuk pasal baju sekolah baru, beg sekolah baru, kasut baru, dan semua baru walaupun sekolah baru jer mula bercuti... dia dapat nombor lapan dalam peperiksaan so not too bad lah...

i think dah panjang lebar giler dah i tulis nih... this coming week i'm going to london for a short holiday... sort of like a birthday gift to myself... i don't think i would be able to update my blog *i don't think i want to* because i just want to relax... i may drop by to chat or just to read my blog and other people's blog... but that's about it lah... so see you soon...

in the gift shop...

to ijin, i'm sorry that i won't be here on your wedding day *sapa suruh buat wedding on my birthday... muhahaha?* but i wish you all the wonderful things in life, for you and your future husband... semoga kebahagiaan bersama suami tercinta kekal abadi... you are such a wonderful sister and great friend... selamat pengantin baru, ijin....

the one about badrul and yanie's birthday...

happy birthday yanie...


i wanted to update my blog secepat mungkin so i can put yanie's birthday pictures on her birthday, tapi tangan dah gatal pulak pergi upgrade blog to beta ntah apa-apa ntah, sekarang nih langsung tak boleh nak upload gambar pakai hello... sampai pukul dua pagi malam sebelumnya try nak letak gambar tapi tak boleh... tension giler... now uploading these photos pakai the button yang ada dekat blogger post nih and it took ages... i start pukul 8.20 malam, sekarang pukul 9.37 malam baru habis letak gambar yang berapa keping jer nih...


makanan yang sedap-sedap...


anyway, it was a wonderful evening with close friends... walaupun tak faham ler kan dengan orang nih sorang yang beli roti canai to celebrate birthday... muhahahaa... save budget kot sebab nak simpan duit beli birthday present kat kengkawan *wink!*.. muhahahhaa... to yanie, happy 21 birthday girl... sorry ler terlambat sikit posting but ofcourse kat blog joe, fiebie and mr.manager dah ada gambar-gambar yang dipostkan... walaupun tak ada currlass macam gambar-gambar kat blog nih lah sebab diaorang pakai handphone jer... muhahahhaaa...


tengah tengok phone baru ning, yang dia baru dapat dari boyfriend baru dia... hiks...


seronok dapat jumpa kawan-kawan balik selepas sekian lama... most of them i tak jumpa since hari raya... now dah nak habis dah hari raya sebulan... banyak benda yang nak dibuat sebab everything pun masih lagi initial stage... insyaAllah bila dah okay dan stabil nanti, semua akan normal sikitlah kot... actually tak banyak nak diceritakan pasal yanie's birthday celebration since orang lain pun dah cerita... tak payah nak repeat lagi kan... so enjoy these pictures lah ya...


ning testing phone baru...


by the way, to those yang wish me untuk kancil air awards tuh, thank you very much... but too bad, 'aiman tak kisah' didn't win anything... mungkin takda rezeki kot... tak kisahlah... hopefully next time... maybe 'aiman tak kisah' tuh diterima di luar negara daripada di dalam negara sendiri... macam 'sepet' jugak... muhahahahaaa... berangan lah pulak kan nak letak 'aiman tak kisah' setaraf dengan 'sepet'... muhahahahaa...

tetap nak test phone baru...


at last, single diddy dan yanie dah keluar... now nak kena sibukkan diri pulak untuk buat small promotions... ya lah kan, nak kena pergi hantar ke radio stations, and ofcourse to the press yang banyak support selama nih... i'm happy that the song dapat banyak airplay on hot fm and era... keep requesting for it, okay...

mr. manager tengah sibuk ambik gambar untuk update blog dia...


another thing that i'm happy with, is that diddy and yanie tercalon untuk pencalonan awal anugerah bintang popular berita harian 2006 untuk kategori duo / berkumpulan popular... tak kisahlah baru pencalonan awal, but the recognition tuh yang buatkan i rasa terharu... sekurang-kurangnya usaha-usaha awal telah membuahkan hasil... and now i'm working very hard to collect the materials for his album... hopefully it will be something special and outstanding...

diddy with aidit alfian and wife, zaza...


oh ya, sebelum lupa, if you know anyone atau if you yourself tahu macam mana nak built website, let me know okay... i'm looking for someone with fresh new ideas and tahu selok belok buat website... the payment can be discussed... i know there are so many companies out there yang i boleh try, but apa guna ada blog kalau tak pakai the networking, kan? okay, i don't know what else to write... otak dah blank dah nih... enjoy the pictures...

with audi mok... hhmmmmm...

sajer nak bagi boyfriend ning jeles... muhahahaa...

penyampaian hadiah tempat pertama...

posing sebelum acara suap kek...

acara suap kek...


to yanie, again, happy 21 birthday... semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan berjaya menjadi bintang yang terkenal...

the one about badrul and cerita ceriti...

i was staring at the screen of my laptop for the longest time... setiap kali nak mula update something terus jadik blank... walaupun awalnya ada banyak benda nak update, tapi tiba-tiba terus hilang dari dalam fikiran... entah kenapa... i know someone 'complaint' that sebelum nih my update bunyi macam sedih jer selalu... maybe i'm going to that phase in my life... or maybe i'm not that good a writer to write something funny or happy... or maybe now i'm too transparent that i can't even hide my feelings anymore... muhahahaha... eh, look... i'm laughing... that's a good sign...

::adik bau masam::

*tutup pintu kereta*

"ehhh, dik... apa bau masam nih?"

"bau masam?!?"

"ha'ah... bau macam cuka... perfume baru ker? muhahahahaa..."

*hidu diri sendiri* "mana ada bau masam!!!"

"tak dapat bau ker? kuat sangatlah..."

"hhmmmm... ya lah... bau masam... hehe... mungkin tertidur atas nail polish kot... lama sangat tunggu abang tadi..."

"hahahahaa... sejak bila pulak pakai nail polish nih?!? cantik nyah!!!"

"mak memang cantik nyah!!! hehehehe... bukanlah... tadi orang tu gosokkan baju... kena nail polish dia kot..."

"memang sah bau masam!!!"


::mak ayam blogger merajuk 1::

"eh, sorry lah..."

"aaaggghhhhhh!!!"

"alah, aku betul-betul sibuklah... memang nak datang..."

"aaahhhhh... lepaslah!!! aku nak pergi lunch!!!"

"alah, janganlah marah... sepatutnya benda tuh habis awal, tapi hujan, dia orang start lambat... tu yang tak sempat datang tuh..."

"aku taknak dengar!!!"

*sambil bawak cupcake dan tak pandang muka* "kalau nko call hari ahad, memang aku tak angkat talipon!!!*

"alah, sorrylah sekali lagi... kalau tak caya, tanyalah... memang habis lambat... patut start pukul 8 malam, pukul 10.45 baru start... sorrylah..."

"hhhmmmmmm..."

*ubah topic* "wah cantik cupcake... macam pernah kutengok... errr.. initial 'nm' tu untuk apa? muhahahaha"


::mak hayam blogger merajuk 2::

"hello..."

"location?"

"driving back..."

"motif senyap jer?"

"takda apa... busylah... banyak benda nak kena buat... nak kena siapkan..."

"ya lah... negggreetffuul maadderrr!!!"

"kat mana?"

"kat shah alam... dengan fiebie, hatta semua... come lah lepak dengan kita orang!"

"cannot lah... i'm tired..."

"hhhhhhmmmm!!! what are doing for your birthday?"

"i won't be around... i'm going to london..."

"when???"

"on the 20th nov... about a week plus..."

"hhhmmmm... okaylah... can i see you before that..."

"okay..."

"cakap jer okay... you neeeggreeetfffuulll mmaaaddeerrr!!!"

"alah, nanti kita jumpalah..."

"ya laaaahhhh..."

"okay bye..."


::mak hayam blogger verrrry derrr slow::

"heelllloooo...."

"yesss?!?"

"mana master copy nyer? janji hari isnin!!!"

"i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

"hah??!!? bila boleh dapat?? kata nak buat promotion cepat-cepat!!!"

"i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

"nih dah hari jumaat dah nih... aku dah janji nak jumpa orang tuh, orang nih..."

"i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

"haallloooo?!? apa yang nko mencarut nih??? boleh tak cepat sikit!!! nanti nak bawak pergi radio stations lagi... nah bagi kat press lagi... cepatlah sikit..."

"i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

"hannjeenggg ttaauuu!!!"

"i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

*ttoott ttoott ttoott ttoott ttoott ttoott ttoott*

"heeellooooo!!!"

"eeerrrr, sorry, dia kat toilet kejap..."

"haannjeennggg, pergi toilet konon... tinggal phone kat orang lain lah ya!!"

"errrrr... i'm disinclined to grant your request my acqueiscence..."

so the single for diddy and yanie sekarang dah totally siap... and it will be played on era and hot fm starting this saturday... terasa macam it was so long ago since we started the project... my first ever step into the entertainment business... i have trillion people to thank, but i know i will not be able to write their names here one by one... you know who you are... so, tune in to era and hot fm... and tell me what you think...

p/s - i'm going for kancil air awards tonight... 'aiman tak kisah' is one of the nominations... wish me luck...

the one about badrul and hari raya celebration... or the lack of it...

selamat hari raya...

unlike previous aidilfitri, tahun nih takda banyak yang menyeronokkan... this year i pay more attention to keperluan ahli keluarga dan adik beradik... persalinan pakaian untuk my mom and dad, and of course the kids menjadi keutamaan... then anak-anak saudara dan tentunya adik-adik i... most of it i dah prepare way before hari raya... maklumlah, tahun nih my parents nak bawak my grandma balik kampung... dah lama dia tak balik kampung... keadaan kesihatan my grandma tak mengizinkan dia berjalan jauh... nak bergerak pun dah sukar apatah lagi dengan keadaan mata yang makin lama semakin tak nampak... since semua nak balik awal ke kampung, dan menyambut hari raya di kampung, semuanya disediakan secepat mungkin... sate pun order kat kampung jer supaya tak payah nak kena masak banyak-banyak kecuali untuk makan pagi raya... tahun ni jugak i sediakan duit raya lebih sedikit since my family dah menjadi semakin besar... i'm happy kerana bukan selalu pun... setahun sekali jer...

tahun ni jugak i tak beli baju raya... memang awalnya dah plan at least nak beli sepasang baju melayu dengan samping dan songkok baru, tapi i have use the money for something far more important than my own baju melayu... pengorbanan yang i rasa sungguh berbaloi demi seorang adik... to me, tak kisahlah since i can still use baju melayu yang lama... lagi pun baju melayu tuh warna hitam so sentiasa nampak macam barulah... muhahahahaa... anyway, i beli jugak butang baju melayu so technically ada jugak yang baru i pakai on hari raya... i think i pergi beli butang tuh betul-betul malam raya kat jalan masjid india... macam pasar malam besar-besaran malam tuh... semuanya sibuk shopping last minute and hujan lebat langsung tak mengurangkan orang yang datang... my first experience shopping malam raya...

actually tiga empat hari sebelum hari raya i memang dah rasa tak sedap badan pun... malam jer badan jadi panas dan pijar... siang tak terasa sangat, tapi bila malam menjelang terus panas badan... paling teruk, mata pun kabur-kabur bila bawak kereta walaupun siang hari... malam lagilah teruk dengan lampu-lampu kereta dan jalanraya... tuh yang buat sampai sakit kepala... so, kepada semua teman dan rakan yang jemput i hadir ke majlis rumah terbuka masing-masing, i mintak maaf sangat-sangat kerana tak dapat nak tunaikannya... i betul-betul tak boleh nak bawak kereta... kalau dekat-dekat tuh, dapatlah jugak i tahankan... nasib baik i dah booked flight ticket balik kampung on the third of hariraya... tak payah nak drive jauh-jauh...

bila sampai di kampung, keadaan lagi teruk... kesian jugak pada aiman yang sambut harijadi without me on the second day of hariraya, but i've promised him to have something special during the weekend... lagi kesian kat dia bila kena sambut birthday tuh kat hospital... nantilah i ceritakan some other time... nasib baiklah aiman anak yang bijak... he knows apa yang penting dan apa yang boleh ditangguhkan dulu... hopefully i can take him to somewhere special soon... first week of hariraya was quite boring for me and if not for my laptop on which i can update my blog, check my emails and surf the net, i think i boleh giler sorang-sorang... syukur Alhamdulillah that i masih lagi boleh melihat dunia... it was quite scary *and stupid on my side of course!* tapi nasib baik semuanya selamat... again, nantilah i cerita... not ready to share my stupidity yet... muhahhahaaaa...

now back in kl nampaknya semua masih seperti biasa... jalanraya masih sibuk, kesesakan masih teruk, udara masih berjerebu... i guess kita semua pun boleh sedar that no matter what happen to us, keadaan sekeliling masih lagi berjalan seperti biasa... tiada yang berubah dan tiada yang mengendah... kalau adapun, tentulah ahli keluarga kita yang risaukan tentang keadaan kita... so remember, ingatlah orang yang tersayang terutamanya keluarga kita... they are the people who really cares about us... untungnya, keluarga i dah semakin besar... i have more people who cares about me, i guess... muhahahaa... berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul...

i guess your raya must be pretty good, huh...

the one about badrul and that wonderful news...

front...

yes! the first card is ready... my company is now open for business... f-tersix sdn bhd... i received the company number seminggu sebelum hari raya... masa tu memang dah tak sabar dah nak update, but i still have to wait for the card untuk siap dulu, baru nampak official sikit kan... as you can see, there is a web address on the card, tapi i just got it so belum dapat buat apa-apa lagi... takpalah, slow and steady... taknak nanti sampai tak cukup tangan nak terpa semuanya sekali gus... but the most important thing is that i dah booked the domain... thank you to boy yang tolong buatkan...

sebenarnya masih lagi banyak benda yang perlu dilakukan... this is just the initial stage... orang kata macam tapak pertama... Alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan dengan agak baik dan tersusun walau terdapat sedikit ranjau di sana sini... perjalanan masih jauh but i have a very good business partner yang i rasa will always keep me on track... setakat ni pun sokongan teman-teman sangat kuat... you know who you are... thank you so much... and i really hope that the support will continue... at the same time, dah ada a few business deals which are very promising... insyaAllah, bila sudah ada black and white, i akan update kan...

back...

this is the 'first' card... ada lagi satu card which is also another good news for me, tapi i belum boleh ceritakan lagi di sini... some close friends macam leen dah tau *sebab dia dah tak senang ttutttt dah nak tau* but selagi belum ada confirmation, i rather not tell everyone... sampai masa nanti, insyaAllah, i will share the good news with all... hopefully soon lah kot... kalau ada rezeki, adalah...

to those yang meminati diddy, don't forget to watch his performance hari sabtu nanti for hitz.tv kat sunway lagoon... he will be singing two english songs, and i promise you it will be something excellent, insyaAllah... it will not be diddy yang you tengok masa af... it will be much better! if i'm not mistaken, that event start dalam pukul 2.00petang... nanti bila i dapat more information, i akan bagitau...

to all yang baru balik dari kampung and dah start kerja tu*i belum lagi!*, selamat bertugas... and again, selamat hari raya aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin... hari tu sibuk berbuka, sekarang sibuk nak beraya dan pergi rumah terbuka... makan... makan... makan... hhhhmmmm...

the one about badrul and a gift from the heart...

"in view of hari raya celebration,the rush schedules you have been going through and to celebrate the opening of f-tersix, your love one is taking you for a short escapade, hopefully to rejuvenate your soul... details as follow: date - 21 oct 06, time - have a good rest, just sleep early... will be woken... venue - you don't need to know... what to pack - will be packed for you... what to bring - wear comfortable, slippers, ic, driving license, wallet, camera (optional), sunglasses, cigarattes and lighter..."

that was the sms i received from someone very special in my life... not many people know, but i love suprises... and what's important, it came from someone that you love and you really care about... things were tough for the past couple of days for me and this special person could actually see right through me... just a few days before hari raya, my stress level was at its peak... my blood-pressure was 160 over 118... horrible, horrible headache... oh well, bla.. bla... bla... bla... same old thing kan... macam dah tak ada benda baru nak cerita... anyway, i hope i will be able to cope with my stress soon... it has to be really soon... oh well... oh well...

"wake up... it's time..."

i look at the clock, 5.30am... a small bag was ready by the door... so i took a quick shower and jumped on the car...

"mana kita nak pergi?"

"just wait and see... it's still early... why don't you close your eyes and relax... take a nap or something..."

i closed my eyes and woke up an hour later with heavy traffic on the highway...

"we are on the highway going north... where to?"

"you'll have to wait... it seems like everyone is going back to their hometown for raya at the same time..."

i doze off again... i woke up at the exit to sungkai...

"we are going to sungkai? what's in sungkai?"

"you ask too many questions... just wait, okay..."

mata i tak berkelip tengok barisan rumah-rumah kampung... dah lama benar i tak balik kampung... dah lama benar i tak hidu udara kampung, tak rasa suasana kampung... i close my eyes again and picture myself in my grandma's house... rumah kayu kampung dengan tingkap yang banyak, penuh dengan pokok buah-buahan di sekeliling rumah... mandi air telaga yang sejuk, main upih pinang, panjat pokok rambutan, makan bersila di dapur, diterangi lampu pelita... oh lampu pelita... arwah tok aki selalu hiburkan cucu-cucunya dengan wayang kulit... dan i tukang pegang lampu pelita... those childhood moments...

"dah sampai..."

i open my eyes... it says plantation resorts trap sungai klah...

"today, you just relax... do not think of anything else... just you... just you"...

i look at the watch... it says 7.30am... the place was beautiful, quiet and so peaceful... hot spring spa... penuh dengan tumbuhan yang menghijau...

i felt good... dah lama benar tak rasa macam tu... at first, i thought i had this weird feelings... tapi rupanya i actually felt good from inside... genuinely rasa lega... not just on the surface... jauh dari kebisingan, tak ada masalah dalam fikiran, tak ada sesiapa except myself... i know that all those things will come back, but at that point of time, i don't care... all i know was that i have that two short hours to myself... kelegaan yang dah lama i tak rasa...

"stop trying so hard to make everyone likes you... i love you for who you are, and they should too... if not, they are not your real friends... you don't have to impress them!"

expectation... hmmmm... oh, this conversation took place later, but sebelum i lupa, i better put it down... honestly, i thought my relationship was fine... i thought it was smooth sailing... maybe not smooth sailing, but it was okay... i tak pernah terfikir yang dia rasa otherwise... trust me, never take anything for granted... time to save my relationship...

it was the best two hours... well, i had fun the whole day actually... i rasa lega dan lapang... thank you my love... terasa berat hati driving back to kl... seperti kembali ke tempat yang penuh dengan masalah dan kepedihan... but i realised, all of these add colours to our lives...

"i wish i could trade place with you..."

someone wrote to me once... i tak reply pun... but i want to say it here, kita selalu nampak keseronokan dan kelebihan hidup orang lain... kita selalu anggap kehidupan orang lain lebih baik daripada apa yang kita miliki... well, itu hanyalah apa yang kita nampak di luar... kita tak lihat kehidupan sebenar yang mereka miliki... kita tidak nampak kesusahan, kesedihan, kepedihan dan kedukaan yang mereka lalui... selagi kita tidak dapat menerima kehidupan kita sendiri, kita tidak dapat mencintai diri kita sendiri, selagi itu kita akan tercari-cari, kita akan mencemburui dan kita akan menghargai kehidupan orang lain... so stop thinking that other people's lives is much better than ours... and start living... but most importantly, start loving yourself...